I just moved in to my state flagship school. I ended up here by default, since I didn’t get accepted to my first or second choice schools, and I couldn’t validate spending an extra $5,000 plus travel costs on a school 500 miles away that I only liked slightly more. I’ve never been a huge fan of this school’s campus, but now that I’m here, I realize coming here was probably a huge mistake.
I understand that I’ve only been here a couple days and I need some time to adjust. Every time I’ve come here, whether it be for high school events, touring, or registration, I can’t say I’ve found anything I love about the campus. I’ve tried to get excited about it, I really have. I came here with an open mind, but seeing myself happy and spending the next four years here seems impossible. It’s just too big of a school in too small of a community. I come from a suburb of the biggest city in my state, and I like having a smaller community but being able to do “big city” things with just a car ride.
Also, I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression before. Most of the time, it gets worse when I’m back in a learning environment and under a lot of stress. Stress is a normal part of school and learning, but I think being in a place I don’t want to be in would just make it so much worse. I plan on contacting the school’s counseling center, since my therapist recommended it, but no amount of therapy will make me happy in a place I don’t want to be.
The main problem, though, is that I’m now considering a major that my school doesn’t even offer. I applied undecided, but then after I was accepted thought I would like to do music education. Now, I’m thinking I want to do Music Business or Music Industry. My school doesn’t offer either.
With all this in mind, and assuming I stick with my thought of pursuing a Music Business program, what should I do? I plan on sticking out the semester, but is it worthwhile to continue at a school that doesn’t make me happy or offer my desired program for the spring semester? Should I start looking into transfer options now, apply, and then go back home for spring semester to work and make some money?
Sorry for the wall of text, but thanks for reading!