<p>For those that don’t know me or my situation, I am a high school senior and my nickname is PUNKiiE. XD Sweet! Anyway, my problem is that I do not want to live close with my parents anymore. I feel that I don’t love them as much as I did before. Yes, I am Asian.</p>
<p>I know, I know, we should appreciate our parents and thank them for everything they do. I really do appreciate my parents for everything that did for me all the time. Sometimes I feel like my family does not understand me. My dad is okay. My mom and brother just do not seem to understand me at all. They both think I’m weird and not myself. Even though I am myself and when I say thinks they both think I said something else even though I did say it loud and clear. </p>
<p>When I applied for colleges, my parents decided to me apply to colleges that I want to attend. Thank god, for that. Usually parents want kids to apply to HYPB etc etc, but who doesn’t? I got rejected by every single college. I’m waiting for the 6th college to reject me because I have a feeling it’s going to be a rejection. I already apply to 2 colleges with rolling admissions that are in MA. </p>
<p>My mom thinks I am not working hard enough and that it was my fault that I wanted to transfer twice. You see, I transeferred from a boarding school to a boarding school and now to a public school. Why did I do that? It’s because I wanted to be with my brother who is an okay student (with C’s) and he doesn’t like the boarding school he attended or the one that I attended. He decides to go to public school. I decided to go with him because I want to spend time with him and my family before I go off to college. My parents wanted to put me as a dorm student at my old boarding school, but I didn’t want it. Now, she blamed me for everything from transferring to high schools twice, to my SAT scores and grades, and my personality and who I am which totally explains “why I do not have friends.” For the SAT, I see no point in retaking it when I am not even good at it. I practice my butt off for that test using Xiggi’s method and taking the program to improve my score. Still didn’t do so well. I see no point taking it for the third time. My family thinks it was a waste of time doing activities that I do after school such as helping kids. My family thinks how can you help kids when you cannot help yourself? I feel really angry when they asked me that all the time.</p>
<p>It is making me depress to know what my family thinks of me. Weird, not girly, and clever. I admit I am a slow person when it comes to thinking with subjects that are hard or easy. However, I am not slow when it comes to people who needs help or comfort. I can sense when something is wrong and I listen to their problems and try to give them advice. </p>
<p>Here I am now, feeling depress and hating my parents, and somewhat my brother. My parents suggested if I don’t get into college I work at a hair salon. But I don’t want to! I just want to learn and maybe use that knowledge to help others. I feel like I should move far away from them, and that I should of not been their daughter and sister. Someone else should of been their daughter and sister, not me. I am unworthy. Right now, I am thinking I should apply out-of-state. Somewhere in the Mid-west. Maybe Ohio? Wisconsin? Indiana? Somewhere far, where I can learn about Economics/Business/History/Languge/Art and not be depress from them. </p>
<p>Am I wrong to feel this way? Hating my parents and my brother for making me feel like I’m the worst thing they ever got in their family? Am I wrong to move away? So far away?</p>
<p>Sorry for such a long post about my ranting and unorganize thread. I need desperately need your answer. Any suggestions to which colleges that I should that are rolling admissions, please tell me because I do not know much about colleges that are not from the Northeast region. Thank you!</p>