I have too much anxiety before classes beginning and it’s wasting my time. It’s so hard to concentrate studying my textbooks when my anxiety comes up. I’m gonna be dead.
My home creates a lot of distraction (like a mess) and anxiety for me. I hate studying at home because once I’m hook onto the textbook/homework, then Dad or Mom calls me to come out and pick up the stuff from the garage or do dishes. It makes me want to cry after I have anxiety until I have no more tears left. Anxiety is taking my time off from studying and I figure how I’m going to survive this. I have to stay on campus, but sometimes I feel like I want to go home and eat, but that is a wrong choice for me.
I am a beginner at programming and let’s just say I am stuck in community college for the fifth semester. I need one more year to graduate with a computer science AS degree.’
I have more anxiety than ever because I took calculus like more than a year ago since I began college at 18. I haven’t practice programming over the summer since my summer class so it’s like 2 months of absent of programming. I am learning Data Structures (involving with Java), Linear Algebra, and Physics I. Data Structures, Physics, and Linear Algebra required a lot of logic and problem-solving.
What are the good sources to find online tools to help my understandings in the technical and fundamental stuff other than coursera, khan academy, go to office hours, and stackoverflow? How much time should I spend on Physics and Linear Algebra while my calculus skills are dry? How much time should I spend on studying Data Structure while programming my project? I want to be serious with it. I hate programming. I hate anxiety. There are no other majors that I like.
Also, I have a job which I work on 2 days on weekdays and one on weekends. I work for 13-17 hours a week for this semester.
You need to see a therapist and possibly get medication to treat your anxiety. Don’t wait. It’s crippling your ability to do things. Tell your parents about the anxiety. And when you start studying, let your parents know and ask for a few hours to get your work done. Or study at the library in campus. Go to office hours and the campus tutoring center. Stats positive, tackle one thing at a time, and you will get through this.
I feel like I want to see a therapist, but I don’t want to. There are lot of things that are going into my mind. It keeps going up and down. So, I really need to speak to someone who used to struggle like me if anyone is like “creativity vs logical”.
Please go to the student health center and inquire about counseling. They will be able to tell you if you need help, and if so, what kind. Please don’t delay!
college is a great resource to start seeing a professional for mental health. Trust me- you’ll feel better. Next, I suggest using the library to study and avoid going home until you absolutely need to. Even get a campus job!
Understand that anxiety is an extremely common problem on college (and elsewhere) campuses. College counseling center see this every day. There are ways to help.
Based on what you wrote (only a trained doctor can evaluate this), it sound like your anxiety is more than what is consider reasonable and is severely impacting your life. This appears to be something that you will need help with. You should consider this as the same as any other illness that requires a doctor’s help to evaluate and treat.
Try to see a therapist/doctor. They can evaluate your anxiety and help you come up with a plan to help you deal with it. They can teach you techniques that will help you keep the anxiety at a manageable level. They can help you determine if medication would be helpful. Medication, if needed, can really help but you will most likely also benefit from therapy. There is no magic pill. Anxiety can be treated but it will take time, effort and experimentation to find the right solution for you.
I know you feel overwhelmed. That you should be able to overcome this by yourself. That this is a sign of weakness and failure. THIS IS NOT THE CASE! You potentially have a mental illness that needs to be treated just like any other illness. Once you start treatment, you will see how your anxiety is distorting how you are thinking.
Thank you for everyone for the replies. My anxiety gotten better because I don’t have the confidence… I accepted my fail on Data Structure and I passed Linear Algebra after regaining my confidence from failing my first exam. It was Physics that drove me to anxiety, so I dropped the class and also the CS professor was scary too, so he was unapproachable because of the way he looks.
This semester, I am taking a different Data Structure professor and felt comfortable with him. I don’t know about Computer Architecture, but I don’t feel scared when I saw the coding from the first glance.