Hello, some of you may remember me. I joined this site when I was a freshman in college and I was pretty active back in the day. I graduated from Goucher College last year (May '16) with a double major in Theatre and Women, Gender, and Sexuality Studies. I’ll be attending grad school this fall. I’ll be getting a MA in Gender and Women Studies. I graduated cum laude, 3.5 GPA, and Honors in Theatre. I was teaching English in South Korea for several months and now I’m back in Metro Atlanta. I studied abroad in Australia for a semester when I was at Goucher.
I actually started my college career at Knox in IL. I withdrew my sophomore year during Fall Term after being severely depressed and anxiety written. Knox is in the middle of cornfields and the environment made me depressed. Towson/Baltimore was a much better fit. I actually had a mental breakdown in October '13 the weekend before a French listening test. I had a nervous breakdown over this one exam. Though, I never struggled in college academically at Knox or Goucher except for French. At Knox, I started over in French and had an A in the class before I withdrew. At Goucher, we had 110, 120, and 130. I was placed into 110, but the professor thought I was in between 110 and 120. Since I transferred second semester sophomore year, I didn’t want to take three semesters of a foreign language. I took 120 pass/no pass, but always struggled when it came to the listening tests, vocabulary, speaking, etc. I had speech as a child and was able to use documentation from elm school to get out of French 130. Speech is hereditary for my family.
Since I transferred Spring Semester sophomore year at Goucher, I had a hard time finding friends. Most of my friends were in the theatre and women studies department. It was an adjustment switching from trimesters to a semester calendar, but I excelled academically. Socially, it was a different story. Personally I found the student body at Goucher very pretentious. Most students were from NY and New England. Peers would brag about money all the time. One friend from NYC told me she should learn how to drive my '96 Nissan because “it’s a piece of ■■■■”. I’m much closer to my Knox friends to this day. If Knox was moved from Galesburg, IL to Towson, MD, I would have loved it. I had a lot of friends at Knox and I knew everyone. Knox also had a larger international student body population which I loved. Don’t get me wrong I’m proud to be a Goucher alum, but I also struggled with depression at Goucher. I transferred so it would be a “better fit” and it was nothing but. I took summer classes in GA and a lot of 18 credit hours, so I would graduate on time since I basically withdrew from Knox Fall term.
Anyways, I am going to grad school this fall. I’m moving to MN. I remember back in the day on CC someone thought I may have APD. Socially, a lot of people tell me I’m a horrible listener. I literally cannot listen. This has affected me more so socially than academically, but I have to tune out people. People would assume I’m just self absorbed, but I could not help it. I’m more so worried this disorder may affect future employment than grad school. I never needed extra time in undergrad. academically.
However, I got a 1420 (2400) on the SAT and 18 on the ACT. I have always been a horrible test taker. I have anxiety too which has never been treated. I applied to mostly SAT Optional Colleges and CTCL’s. When I looked at the symptoms for APD, I know I just have it. My dad has ADD, but I have no problem focusing when it comes to school work or when I watch a film. I can read for hours. I excel when I write papers and I rather write a 20 page essay than take a test any day. My problems are more social than anything. Academically, I’ve always hated math and science. I took Statistics at a local college here in GA and got a B, but I had to teach myself a lot of the steps. I really want to speak French and visited France for 3 weeks back in 2011 before senior year. I always excelled in writing French in both college and high school. In college, I would get a B on the writing part of the exam but I would fail all the French listening questions and would get around a C with speaking as I struggled with speech as a kid.
https://ldaamerica.org/types-of-learning-disabilities/auditory-processing-disorder/
I look at these symptoms & I know I have this. I want help, but I’m not sure where to go from here. Hope everyone has a great Sunday.
It can cause a lot of anxiety. I think that the misophonia causes anxiety, not the other way around, and changing your perspective on that may help.