Bombed my first university exam (Rant)

College Life
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<p>I just need a place to vent. This really hit me hard because it just further reinforced what I thought my current state is in terms of education. I got my results back from my first Anatomy lecture exam and I was floored. Tonight was lab but I had to excuse myself and leave early because I was so devestated (and I have an essay due tommorow) I could not focus. My TA handed me the stack of exams to get mine and I was seeing some pretty decent grades and then I came across mine and I literally scored 48/120. I knew I wasn’t prepared for this exam but I was no way expecting to do this poorly. And it just completely shattered my already dwindling confidence in my ability to be a successful student here.</p>

<p>And it’s not like I’m deliberately being lazy. I study (admittably NOT enough) but honestly, my mind, and my heart really aren’t in this. I want to excel, but honestly, I’m so uninterested in everything I’m doing. All my classes bore the hell out of me. I have no plan on taking the degree I’m working towards anywhere. Some of you are probably going to say “Change your major”, but it has nothing to do with the major. I don’t have a passion to study my *ss off and then be somebody elses employee until I retire, which is why I’ve started my own business. I already have a successful and growing internet marketing business that allows me to work for myself and build a residual income, so while I see the value of an education, it simply is not significant or dependent in my case. </p>

<p>The only reason I am in college right now is because I feel like I owe it to my mother for all the hard work she’s done for me. And she would be highly upset if I didn’t finish my degree. But I just don’t know how long I can hold out. Only a few weeks into classes and I’m already flunking? It’s like my focus, drive, and energy are just gone while I’m here. Part of it I mentioned in a previous thread is I’m just not enjoying my college experience. It’s just entirely overrated and nothing but a chore to me. The classes, the boring professors, the frats, the parties, the “GET WASSTTEED BROOO” etc. it’s just all getting really corny and fake to me. And this is coming from somebody who actually had a pretty wild side. I’ve yet to make any friends that want to hang out so I just stick to my old HS friends, but this campus is starting to bore me to death. </p>

<p>But anyways, what I’m saying is, I need to make it through these 4 years for my mom. Can somebody please tell me what keeps them motivated to keep going…what makes you want to study, what are your tips, idk anything. I just can’t afford to let my grades suffer like this anymore. If you’re religious, I need prayer lol</p>

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<p>Adderall is your friend. </p>

<p>Anyways, I heard it gets a lot more interesting when you finish your core courses. Just keep moving. I’m also waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel. Not sure I’ll make it. College sucks man. If there is no possible way you can get a B or higher and that course is a required course to graduate, I would honestly just drop it. If you’re fine with a C, then drop it if there’s no way you can make a C. </p>

<p>Also, There’s only so many things you can do for fun in college. Nowadays, I just chill with my friends on the weekend. Partying is so boring.</p>

<p>But yea, it gets better.</p>

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<p>Dude, kindred spirit. I was a 4.0 student in high-school, bombed my first college exam, and have gotten poor marks on some recent assignments that I really felt like I put my heart and soul into.</p>

<p>I’m not the sort of person to give up hope easily, but a part of me is asking, “wouldn’t a military career or trade school make more sense?”</p>

<p>I mean, I’m pumping what will probably be the second largest expenditure of my life (after mortgage theoretically) into what, a piece of paper? Then what?</p>

<p>At the expense of whatever busywork or studying that I’m doing, I could be out starting a business, learning a trade or, I dunno, actually making money instead of losing it.</p>

<p>Kind of dumb that they run these unis like competitions for med or grad school instead of actual learning/research environments.</p>

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<p>So you know you don’t study enough.
And the main reason you’re there is to make your mother happy.</p>

<p>Maybe you should take a gap year/semester to help you decide what you really wnat to be doing with your life.</p>

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<p>give it time. I’m struggling, too. Give it some time, I wish you the best</p>