I’m currently a sophomore in high school taking AP Precalculus, and I plan to study International Affairs in college with a minor in linguistics. I’m not sure where I want to study, but I probably want to go somewhere competitive.
I’ve been debating all year whether to take AP Calc AB or BC my junior year. I’ve never ended a semester with a math grade below an A, and I’ve been in all the top classes my entire life. However, math has always been my weakest subject - I was always the kid who cried in and outside of math class because I couldn’t understand. I also have an extremely math smart older brother majoring in nuclear engineering, who passed Calc BC with As and a 5 on the exam. I’m a very hard worker and care strongly about my academics, but being among the academically elite has unfortunately given me a complex where I have to be in all the best classes or I feel like a failure. Because of this, I want to take Calc BC; but I will also be juggling band, show choir, theatre, and possibly basketball along with my leadership positions such as drum major, a cappella group leader, choir board and theatre board. With all these, I fear I won’t have the time to study rigorously for Calc BC - for more context, I also plan to take AP Lang, AP Bio, and AP Gov/Comparative Gov. My counselor thinks Calc AB would be good for me based on my major and my limited time, and my parents want me to take AB. However, my math teacher thinks I could succeed in BC, and I’d feel like an absolute failure for not taking it. I’ve always been among the smartest, and the concept of not being that is terrifying, but I don’t know what to do.
Sorry for the lengthy explanation - I would really appreciate some advice. This decision has been stressing me out to an unreasonable degree!