Do what you love…love what you do.
You need to figure out what you like. Then look for something related to that…that has entry level positions. You might not get your dream job first off. MOST people don’t.
You are…you. Don’t compare yourself to others.
Pompei- there are millions of people in fine, well paid, satisfying careers who never took math at the level you took. And they are doing just fine.
Don’t let the voice in your head telling you that since you don’t remember much math you can’t find a job.
Don’t let the voice in your head point you towards MORE college as your solution- that’s going backwards, not forwards.
And you may not believe me- a stranger on the internet- but if you were actually getting appropriate help for your depression (talk, meds, combination) none of this would seem as hard or complicated for you as it does right now.
Big hug. You can do this.
If you have a BS you might be able to get aid to study CS in a master’s program through Cybercorps Scholarship for Service program.
You get aid in return for working for the government in Cyber Security.
See if a school close to you is on the list of participating institutions, meet with someone in that department to find out if you can qualify for the program.