I’ve been attending classes for 8 months now, and I only have less than two more to go before I head back home for the summer. I’ve talked to people (kind of), and I’ve done research, and I’ve asked my parents, my psychiatrist, my everyone. And I have yet to make any friends. Most people I have seen started hanging out with each other in a matter of just a couple days. I’ve tried one or two clubs, and none of them interest me. I can’t trust the Frats so much as I could throw one. Not only does this make me feel depressed beyond belief, but it also makes me feel bored. I’ve been told that art of my problem is that I have a social disability that I rather not go into detail with, but that doesn’t solve anything. I’ve also been told to just say hi to people. Not only does that not make sense, but the thousands of times that I’ve tried that solution in the past have left me empty handed. I’ve even tried going outside with my guitar to practice a little bit as well as draw some attention, but that just left me with the crickets chirping. Sometimes I wonder if I have some kind of look that disgusts and/or offends people. This isn’t enough to make me feel suicidal. Not only because I know better than to do such a thing, but I already kind of feel dead inside. I’m not worried about letting this interfere with my grades, because I’m doing fine for the most part (Other than having to retake a class). But getting to the point, I need help, and fast.
I’m really sorry you’re feeling so down. What school do you go to?