Please don’t use text talk in your posts. What do you mean?
Do the best you can in your academics. Continue the activities you like.
I’d suggest checking the net price calculators for those privates OOS. See what number you get with your parents. If they say that is out of their price point, then so be it.
You are fortunate to have many many CA publics at instate costs.
As an FYI…NYU is over $90,000 a year now.