You’re lucky that you weren’t in the US, taking the test. You would have been called out just for taking out that “backup” laptop. They would have cancelled your test and not rescheduled your test nor provide a refund.
You need to learn and understand that the US colleges run on strict rules and timelines. If you’re not ready to meet a challenge, then it will be impossible for you to be successful. Life is unfair. So what? That’s a very common thing, but people charge through it. You shouldn’t perseverate on something that won’t come back.
If you haven’t had a chance to see the movie the Martian with Matt Damon you’ll notice he deals with challenges. Yes, it’s fiction but it shows you what people are willing to do, to move on to the next step. In Spanish we call it, “Pasito a Pasito”-Small step to small step
I was on financial aid in college and, unfortunately for me, the financial aid office had strict hours. I could never make it to that office, during my senior year, because I had tough classes during their hours.
The financial aid offices were half an hour away from the buildings where I had my classes. If you missed the class, you missed three hours of lecture notes that weren’t in the texts, but were on the tests. I couldn’t rely on friends’ notes because everyone takes notes “differently” and at different speeds. (I was always the one who people came to for notes because mine were more “thorough”).
When I finally skipped the end of a class, and was able to get to financial aid, they had a special meeting that caused the office to close. At that time, we didn’t have direct deposit, but even if it had existed, I still needed to sign the paperwork to release my federal, state, and scholarship funds.
I had bills to pay and I had borrowed money from friends and family promising them repayment immediately. Life was unfair.
I dealt with it. I tried three times to do it and on the third time I finally got in.
The colleges and universities are really big tests of your faith in yourself. If you can’t adapt, you’re going to be miserable.
I missed some time on a final because I was out sick for a while, and didn’t get the updated room number. Fortunately, I got a call from a friend who said, “why aren’t you here in the lecture hall?? We’re starting our final! I was 45 minutes late and I had no idea the final had been switched to an engineering building.
I rapidly took the test and wrote a note on my Final saying that I had been sick and didn’t have the updated room number, but that I would do my best. The professor later called me and asked me if I wanted to take the current score that I achieved, or he could call in his graduate assistant to give me the final. I told him that I would accept whatever score I got because I didn’t want our (exceptional) GA to miss out on time with his family (because he would have to be called in during the holidays).
Things happen. We don’t perseverate on: could’ve, would’ve, should’ve. Those are called excuses. Future employers don’t want employees who can’t adapt.
Again, I really think you need some strong mental health support.