<p>Recount an incident or time when you experienced failure. How did it affect you, and what lessons did you learn?</p>
<p>It was my sixth week in University of California - Los Angeless summer program and I already felt that terrifying feeling that I was going to fail Computer Science class, which had deadly importance for me. This was not just a subject that I had no interest in. It was directly related to my profession as I wanted to study Computer Science in my bachelor years. However, that was not the only reason I was so desperate.
In my country, the tutors are easy to find and they do not require as much money as they need in USA. I was alone in the university, where I knew only people who were not in my class, because people in group were not so friendly. Therefore, I was the only one who could rescue me from failing. Despite this fact, my father has in an online business and he was very proud that I intended to study the same line of work and I did not want to ruin his satisfaction with my failure in the end of the class.
I was talking to my parents every day and they tried to convince me that I could do everything well, if I worked enough. Therefore, I began to study 8-9 hours a day, because their encouragement helped me work more. The days passed by and I was becoming more and more convinced, that I was far behind my class despite of my hard work.
I had final exam in two weeks, in which I failed. I was frustrated and blamed my failure at teacher assistants, who did not help me as much as I needed. The energy, optimism and cheerfulness changed into anxiety, angriness and hopelessness. This was the time when I gave up. I gave up all my dreams about becoming a Google worker and successful programmer. All my desires to execute ideas and projects that I had in mind just vanished. I wanted to choose different field to study as finances, because I could do math well and I had much interest in it too, or music, because I was playing piano for 8 years and I had enjoyed every note and hard-work that I had done.
I called my father and told him that I hated every program or software on internet and I would not be a part of creating anything like them. I told him that I had no desire to study computer science and I waited for his answer. I was very frightened and thought that he would have had disastrous reaction; however, the only thing he told me was that maybe the two months I had spent there was worth knowing that the profession I was choosing was not mine. He told me not to worry and calm down, because my voice has never been so serious ever.
After my summer at UCLA, I went back home to Georgia had an amazing vacation with my friends and I changed back to who I was before I went there. I was cheerful and optimistic again. However, the belief in myself and self-confidence that I had, were gone. The thoughts that I used to have moved out and despite of the fact that I was the same from outside, inside I was a confused girl with ruined dreams.
When I gave some thought to all of my reactions and behavior, I guessed that I was about to make the decision, which I would regret my whole life. I, who always warned people to go after their dreams, was giving up mine. Therefore, I went on tutoring websites and read materials. I took my books of C++ back in the hands, and I began to study them. I went to website designers tutorial sites and guess what? Now, I am in the middle of studying a little information about my profession and each time I see that the project that I had in mind, before beginning of writing codes, was executed, I feel as the most powerful, strong, independent and intellectual woman in the world. That is the feeling I want to have for the rest of my life. I learned that god gave us one life only and we should use it as well as we can to achieve success in the work you love and to make all of our dreams come true. Which feeling would be better than dying with the thoughts that everything done in life had specific meaning and role for happiness of your own? That is the main reason, people should never give up and fight for their dreams.</p>