I don’t know if I mentioned this here or not, but I was laid off at the beginning of the month? Did I mention that here? Anyway, long story short…28 years, reduced hour schedule…company wide layoff, so I was one of them. I got 7 months severance and almost a month of unused vacation time. Not Shocked, but still surprised. DH half heartedly says I can retire if I want, but I know he doesn’t mean it. He is supportive of me not rushing into anything and finding something that suits me. I haven’t been happy there for about 5 years, so it’s not like I’m leaving something or someplace I loved anymore.
I am doing my resume. I’m almost 56 years old, but a young 56. I think people would think I was in my late 40’s. I’ve read not to put dates on resumes at least for graduation (1982). So, I have been with the same company since 1987 and don’t plan on listing the previous 5 year work experience as that is irrelevant. Should I put the dates down 1987 - 2015? This does make me look 5 years younger? Not putting something down might make me look too old.
I always thought I would want to stay home. I admit I love not rushing in the mornings. But I am quite lonely and start getting really bored in the afternoons. I’ve been going for breakfast and lunches with friends, but that only lasts a few hours. I think this is a wake up call for when I really do retire…I need to cultivate some interests if I retire before DH, which I’m sure I will. I did read a book that says you need to have 3-4 activities you are already interested in and now I totally agree. Reading or any solitary pursuit is not an “activity”…it should be something where you are around people.
But I digress…
Honestly, part of me is just sick of the rat race. But the other part is already missing the feeling of contribution to the family checkbook. Not only did I lose my salary, but I carried the insurance. DH is self-employed, so now we are paying $20,000 a year for the same thing I was paying $6,000 a year for.
Another issue…some of the things I did for numerous years at the company, well, I haven’t done in years. It’s not like I could step right in and start! I’d have to be retrained or guided. I feel like a fraud!
This is such a weird time of my life right now. I need to do something constructive until I do find something…whether it be taking a class or volunteering. I hate to start something than have to quit…but who knows how long I will be inbetween jobs. It makes me tired just thinking of starting over again. I"d love to do something else (I’m an accountant), but I have no idea what. If only this had happened 4 years from now, I would just quit for good and not worry about it.
Thanks for any suggestions.