Hi guys, i just joined in and I dont know if im in the right page but here it goes. I have been feeling really depressed lately. My name is Luana, I’m 22 years old, I am currently studying in South Africa but I’m originally from Portugal, I moved there just to study.
So I feel that in this country there are a lot of competition between colleges. I wanted to go to this one called UCT (considered the best university in Africa) but I couldn’t make it because I didn’t reach a 7 for my english exam, but a 6.5 
So i got in into this other random university called Cape Peninsula University of Technology. This is a technikon university and different from the traditional ones. I was in such a urge to get into a college that I just went into that one without looking back. I wanted to study organization psychology but instead I got Human Resources Management (which was the closest thing I could get.) This is where I feel super depressed. I feel like such a failure because all these other UCT kids are doing courses with fancy names and majors, minors or whatever with even fancier names. and I feel like i’m such a loser doing this course that feels more like high school stuff than real college. I get super good grades because I don’t feel challenged, I feel like this school is more for the “unprivileged kids that came from bad high schools”. I feel so depressed because I left my country to be “second best”. And most my friends are from UCT and all they do is just talk about their majors and blah blah blah. It irritates me so much because I also feel jealous of them. Another thing that depresses me is the fact that I’m 2 years behind (most people in my class were all fresh from high school). I had to take 2 gap years because I was moving countries and I had to take care of a lot of paperwork etc. So now I’m feeling like im just wasting my life. Im already 2 years behind and all I see is these UCT people graduating with such mad courses and here I am in this crap college with 2 more years to go. Worst thing is that I feel like I can’t change anything, I feel so trapped! Im a second year student and if I change courses it would take me forever to finish! I just feel so helpless because I just left my country and it feels like its all in vein, im never gonna get a job as good as the UCT kids, i feel like companies will always prefer their graduates. There is so much more to this, and its worse than what it sounds because I HATE the college I’m in… but it would take me too long to tell everything.
I am really depressed and I hope someone can help me.
If you’re feeling depressed, I encourage you to go to mental health counseling. This might even be offered at your college. It will help you work out your feelings and maybe gain a new perspective. Take a look at these thinking errors (these are probably things you’d go over in counseling, but worth considering now) and think how adjusting your thinking could make you feel less depressed http://powerstates.com/10-cognitive-thinking-errors/
In terms of your predicament with your school, are there any other universities you can transfer to that offer the major you want besides UCT? I don’t know much about South Africa…