Ok. So i’ll just start off with some basic info before getting into the real issue. I’m 25 yrs old and went to college for 3 years but had to leave school for personal reasons. I went back to school to get away from home, figure things out, and finish what I started. My major is Sociology and I hate it with a passion. I can’t stand it. Im failing and I have no interest in it. In January I switched my major to english, to creative writing, back to sociology because I realize I lost interest in writing. At first when I was in high school I wanted to be a judge but after taking practice SAT my mom told me I was too dumb to be a judge and with how low these practice scores was I should consider something else and considering all the problems I been having she was right and good thing I didnt try to go for law school so I turned to my to my second passion which was writing. I was inspired by the character Moesha on the self titled show played by Brandy and Khadijah played by Queen Latifah on Living Single. They both were writers and I was a little obsessed with the idea of it.I had a strong passion for writing and wanted to major in journalism and write for Vibe or Source magazine then create my own hiphop magazine. I got discouraged when my aunt told me I wouldn’t get far writing for a “black” magazine and it was pointless so I gave it no more thought.
Now I picked sociology at random because I had a friend in the first college I went to that majored in it and I went in a undecided but semester I was there they put me in Computer Science which was a big no for me!! So here I am today beyond confused and I dont know what to do. I dont know what I like. I like a few things but nothing that could give me a realistic job. I like music, social media, im great with budgeting money, and the rest are silly things. I have no talents. I have no skills I dont know what I want to do. I have no hobbies. I’m not very smart. Over the years I noticed I been having little more problems with grasping basic information. I suck at math. Like you can break down each problem word from word and show me how you got the answer and I still wouldnt understand. I suck at science. I don’t know what interest me. I even went to a counselor on campus to talk about it for a whole semester and it didnt work. Tried tallking to my aunt and mom about it plenty of times but it got me no where. I dont want to be a nurse, manager, engineer, teacher, etc. I cant see myself as none of those things. I have a lot of loans ill have to pay back so at this rate im wasting time. If I switch my major then more than likely itll put me behind. I really dont know what wrong with me. I’m tired of crying about it. It has stressed me out and to make things worse I suffer from depression. I know school not for me and im just forcing at the moment but I wish I could be normal like everyone else. Have anyone had this problem if so what did you do?