<p>Keep in mind that college is only 4 years of your life. </p>
<p>You should not think of courses going to “waste” if you aren’t able to go to the college you most prefer. You should be focused on your education, and you should be enrolling in classes that challenge you and enhance your knowledge, not because they look good on a transcript, but because your goal is to develop your mind.</p>
<p>I’ve also got some hard news for you: if you are going to a reasonably good high school, taking a mix of regular, honors and AP courses, and have to work very hard to keep up and get a mix of A’s and B’s… then college is going to be difficult too. </p>
<p>I think that you are a good person and you can achieve your goals, but you need to focus on your end goals. Yes, a small college with small classes seems more within your comfort level – but the goal is a degree. People get their degrees through many different routes, very often starting out at colleges they are not very fond of. The undergraduate college you attend is not the be-all or end-all of life. Maybe you will start out at a school you don’t like and be able to transfer to a better school later on; maybe you will get a 4 year degree from the college you hate, but do well enough to pursue a graduate degree at a much better school. Maybe you’ll decide to take time off and work somewhere along the way, and you will find that your prospects are somewhat different if you are entering or finishing college as an older, nontraditional student. I don’t think you have to make all the decisions now, but you may have some choices to make next year – and if you really, truly don’t like the college choices you face next spring, you may really want to consider a gap year. </p>
<p>If I were you, I’d pick one test or the other (SAT / ACT) – and study intensively for that test, and then retake it. I’d lean toward the ACT because its a shorter test, but you can figure out which one you are more comfortable with and then give it your very best shot. Get some test practice books, do the tests, and try to figure out where you are going wrong. If you can’t figure it out, get some help – if your parents aren’t willing or able to pay for a tutor, then find some kid in your school who did well on the tests and ask him or her to give you some pointers. </p>
<p>Outside of the tests, do you feel that you have to work harder or struggle more to get the same things done than other students? For example, is reading strenuous for you, or do you find that you have to read and reread repeatedly to make sense of it? Or do you have other tasks that seem unusually difficult for you? You may have an undiagnosed learning disability, and if your test scores don’t come up with self-prep, you might want to talk to a counselor at your school about arranging testing. Legally, a public school is required to screen for learning disabilities when a student or parents have reason to request it, but it can be tough sometimes to get the school to follow through.</p>