Extracurriculars?

So throughout high school, I haven’t got to do too many ECs because of my mom. She constantly complains about how expensive they are and will either completely pull me out of them or sneakily try getting me to drop them myself.

The only consistent EC I’ve done all of HS is choir ( I’m a Junior)

For two years I did dance but she pulled me out of that

I am doing Band now as a Junior because I quit freshman year ( I was oblivious to my mother’s tactics back then. Basically instead of helping me get through my marching insecurities or helping me stay with my instrument while I quit or something she just encouraged me to completely drop it and even now constantly complains about it and how demanding it is)

I do some clubs but non of them are really good like french club only had three meetings this year, I did latin club last year but everyone in that club hates me so I left it, I do LINK but that’s a once-a-year thing ( volunteer organization), I also help my mom out with her job a lot because I have literally nothing to do, I used to go to youth group but my mom forced me out of it and literally attacked me when I asked to at least go to sunday school, science olympiad meets kept getting cancelled, GEMS ( another science club) meets like once a month during lunch

I do flute lessons this year once a week but my mom is making me only get two a month now because " I got a car now" and " my dad is moving away" and stuff like that but now I feel guilty for even trying out for my state youth symphony because if I make it then she will have to pay for it…

I’m not allowed to work either so that’s not an option.

I really wanna learn how to swim because my parents never put me in swim lessons and be on a swim team or do competitive cheer or competitive soccer or even community theatre but I know she’d freak if I even asked ( even though my sister does martial arts AND track and she’s a middle schooler)

I just feel like colleges will think i purposely choose not to get involved and think I’m just lazy or something