I’m taking my last semester of classes in my major. However, I’m not doing very well in my classes exam-wise. I’ve had some worse mental health issues this semester than in previous semesters, but I honestly am not wanting to blame that for my poor performance–I feel like if I’d studied more, I wouldn’t have failed as many exams as I have this early in the semester. I just haven’t been having the best of motivation to study.
I’ve already gone to speak with the dean before I began to fail exams, and discussed with her what’d been happening. We talked about what options we’d have in the event that things got significantly worse. We talked about how it was a lot easier to show up to an exam not feeling alright and say I needed a reschedule versus taking the exam, not feeling okay, and putting stuff on the exam I regret. But still, I’ve been feeling like my poor performance is no one else’s fault but my own. I’ve been getting documentation from all mental health related doctor visits I’ve gone to in order to help document my case should something go wrong this semester, but I’m just not sure if I’m scapegoating my lack of preparation on something else that definitely has been a major problem previously, but I’ve always been able to prevail through it.
If I go from straight As to mixed As, Bs, and Cs this semester, how much does it hurt my prospects in the future–that I began to have a downward trend?