Hey everyone. For some context, I’m currently a sophomore at a T10 US university, but I transferred there this year from a small, well-ranked liberal arts college (~T10). I transferred for personal reasons (including a documented title 9 case where i was the victim), but I regret my decision a ton. I was planning to double in math and physics and to go into a PhD program in one of those subjects, but I’m seriously behind in the curriculum of my new school and it doesn’t look like I’ll be able to have advanced enough coursework in either major in order to gain admission to a PhD, maybe not even enough to finish either major, and I certainly can’t double major. My GPA also dropped when I transferred (4.0 → ~3.6 – which I know is not bad at all, but it’s still more than marginally worse, and I put in about twice the effort at my new school), and that’s not even counting the class I dropped. I’m also absolutely miserable at the new school.
I asked my LAC if they could take me back, but they said I’d have to go through the transfer process, which only has a fall start. My question is: what if I took a gap year for the rest of this year and rejoined my LAC as a sophomore transfer again? In that time I’d work on publishing a physics paper with a professor I’m still in contact with (would be publishing as second author), work on my mental health, probably get some simple job, and maybe audit some courses at a local cc. Then I’d have 3 years remaining at my LAC and apply to grad school from there. The LAC’s admissions rate to grad school is very good, probably better than my current university’s even though the latter has more general name recognition.
This idea seems so extreme, and I feel a little silly for even considering it. Do you know of anyone who has done something like this? Does it sound stupid? Is this too hard to explain to an admissions committee/does it hurt my chances even more than if I just stayed? Am I just digging myself into a deeper hole? I’d really appreciate any advice, especially from people who went to grad school/are in academia or who know someone from a similar situation. I need to decide by the end of the week.