<p>I like “neltharion” example, its very similar to my situation"
I feel like i have been screwed by system/stuck in the system, in elementary i was making straight A’s graduated top of my class (were im at we graduate elementary,& middle) recieved all the awards etc, then i got to middle school had all advance classes did good, then i got to highschool i just had a major decline my grades were awful, I feel like i was put in a weak environment with weak individuals, throughout highschool i had nothing but push over teachers and im sitting in these classrooms like *** is really going on, teachers can even control the classes, it just destroyed my learning ability and it showed in my focus and grades, i feel like it has something to do with the black community, which after highschool i really dont associate with blacks anymore (im black btw) i dont live in the projects or from it but my school was a black school and i live on the black side of the county so its like the weak side with the weak public schools, my school had district zones with the projects so it had kids from the projects attending my school which made the school worst then what it was like having lots of fights and b.s, everybody thought they were hood even though the school is in the country.And the students at my school were all a bunch of losers in my eyes the more i look back on it and think about it, nobody was really talking about college till 12th grade and i know some that didnt, mostly everybody applied to b.s schools in my eyes such as VSU,NFU,VUU (black colleges smh) or the local state school (vcu & odu), i dont find any of these schools attractive or good especially an hbcu since going to school with blacks i already know what type of person applies to them schools and basically the reason behind it is just to go to school… My school barely had announcements in the morning and evenings so i never knew what was really going on at school or about extracurricular activities, they didnt even push us about applying to colleges until our senior year they didnt even push college to be honest (atleast i never noticed it) im on this site like daily and people talking about taking SAT’s during junior year when they didnt even push us till senior year im sitting here like WOW what was i doing in HS? what did i actually learn? why was i at such a disadvantage? why does my school continue to create losers in society? There was also times at my school where we would have lack of “paper” like were on some type of budget and they cant print more paper, so us students had to use notebook paper? i mean seriously the schools on the western side of my county i highly doubt they went threw such b.s, (the western side of my county is like the rich Caucasian side, beautiful schools, smarter kids from wealthier backgrounds, big homes, with 1 new HS which is public & nationally recognized in our state, and this is all in the same county as my school i graduated from just a different side, 35 miles apart from each other) it just shows when you study these demographics that anything “black” is awful and your put at unfair advantages to other races, anyways i wasnt told about my GPA till beginning of my senior year (last minute) my counselor seemed racist/think less of me but i think less of her lol, she wasnt willing to work with me neither was i after recommending me a HBCU which made me hot, i remember Algebra II class like it was yesterday ahh another pushover teacher, we didnt learn anything and random kids would just walk in the class and try to spit game at the teacher, skip class and chill in her class while she teaches us, then we had this thing called SOL where we take a test at the end of the year for that class (in my state we do it starting at preK-12th) mostly everybody in my class failed it i did too ,but passed it the second time after i had a tutor who made it so easy cause my math teacher definitely wasnt teaching me anything lol.
To make another comparison i have 2 cousins who came from another county & school, there school was new and it is another top public school in the state 97% caucasion, like 3% black, one of them went on to vcu the other didnt, but the one who didnt he isnt smarter then me im positive (not to sound cocky im just saying) he graduated with i think 3.7 if im not mistaken, i went to his graduation to see him and his school graduate and man was i suprised they made an annoucement that everybody graduated with 3.7 and up and like 70% of them graduated with above a 4.0 my cousin wasnt part of that 70$ but im saying if you was to put me in that environment i swear i would of came out on top, There graduation was even much nicer then mines and it was in the same Arena, theres wasnt as hood like mines either with a bunch of parents yellin for the kids like animals
To sum it up i feel like i was setup to be like the rest of them i graduated with a awful gpa (2 something) and i still finished top 50% out of 421 other kids, i dont do drugs/smoke weed, drink, like the rest of them, i dont live in the projects but i got little thugs in my neighborhood (there not going to be nothing) studying my neigborhood nobody goes to college straight out of hs unless its some black college or community college (more cc) i had to go to cc cause of my HS, this my first semester here i should end up with a 4.0 this semester then i got 1 more to go before i apply to transfer cause im not gettin no assicates hopefully i get accepted OOS to these good schools, After all this i will never recccommend living in the black community, going to public schools unless there all caucasion in a upper class area, my kids will be going private when i get older to avoid the b.s</p>
<p>**might be spelling errors cause i didnt look over it fully</p>