I will say that I am very impressed with how you’ve grown over the past year. The way you express yourself and your maturity in identifying your feelings is a big change from some of your earlier threads. I know you were working on the issue and needed some time away from the forum to continue doing so, and it is very obvious that you’ve been successful in that work.
I suspect that others may not have realized how much growth you’ve made over that time. Just because others do not comment on it does not mean that you have not made huge strides in your communications and that it’s not something to be proud of. But often there’s not much affirmation because people may not have realized how you’ve grown, or maybe they think you’ve always had this level of skill, or some other reason.
During this season (and throughout your life), you’ll need to learn how to run your own race as @blossom termed in the thread linked below, and how to keep going in your own race, no matter what else happens.
I have more to say, but I need to get going. I’ll be back later.
This thread recently started, but it already has some good perspectives in it that might help with some of your feelings: Handling Post-Result Jealousy