OK, school is closed this week.
But the odds are decent that your guidance counselor may respond to an email in a matter like this. It’s absolutely worth the chance. Likewise, email any teachers you’re close to… if even one gets your email, he/she may contact your guidance counselor via phone. Likewise, find out who the Director of Guidance is, and email him. Make sure in all those cases that your subject makes it very clear what’s going on, so the email will actually be opened even though it’s vacation time. Can you reach out to any teachers/guidance counselors via social media?? (Libraries are open if you need internet access.) You need access to resources, and you need them today.
If you’re seriously considering suicide, then that’s your highest priority. Get help today. Call a hotline. Speak to someone. But don’t let the decision of someone ELSE be the deciding factor in whether you live or die. You’ve got far to much to offer the world to cut it short because of a decision someone else has made.
Where are you today? Do you have a relative or friend who could put you up for the next few days? This is no time to be shy-- ask everyone you know for help. Start with your relatives… perhaps one or two can talk some sense into mom.
This week is a great time to be putting in job applications, before the college kids get back for the summer. For what it’s worth, I suggest restaurant work. Yes, the work is tough. But waitressing at a good restaurant can make you some GOOD money, well above minimum wage. Once you have a place to stay, I think that should be your next priority.
The best of luck to you.