Help needed URGENTLY-Senior Year Depression

<p>Hey guys,</p>

<p>I've been a top student through high school (with good ECs too) and have now finished applying to several top schools (Ivies, etc.). I've always been engaged in my life and have never felt lonely or depressed.</p>

<p>This is my Senior year (second semester), and now that my college apps are over, I feel a strange mixture of depression, confusion, and purposelessness. I want to maintain my grades (I'm currently Vale or Salu), but I can't find the motivation and my life seems purposeless. I enjoy my ECs, such as music and Mock Trial, but can't put in as much time in them as I'd like because of school work...I have 7 APs.</p>

<p>I feel like I want to hang out with friends. I feel that I need a girlfriend or someone who I can share everything with and turn to for emotional support. I feel that something in my life is empty, and it's haunting me. I've been a robot, churning out grades and awards, and although I have made a lot of friends this year, I regret not being sociable throughout HS.</p>

<p>If anyone has suggestions on how to deal with this, I'd find it comforting. Has anyone gone through something similar? I hope I can find good friends (and maybe even a relationship with someone) when I head off to a college (hopefully, a good university). In any case, how feasible are college relationships? HS relationships are often dramatic, inflated, and superficial, and I'm not sure how much things will change in college.</p>

<p>Can ANYONE help me out?</p>

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This is my Senior year (second semester)...

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<p>Yea.</p>

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...I feel a strange mixture of depression, confusion, and purposelessness...

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<p>Yep.</p>

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...I want to maintain my grades (I'm currently Vale or Salu)...

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<p>Mmhmm</p>

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I feel like I want to hang out with friends. I feel that I need a girlfriend or someone who I can share everything with and turn to for emotional support.

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<p>Definitely.</p>

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I've been a robot, churning out grades and awards, and although I have made a lot of friends this year, I regret not being sociable throughout HS.

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<p>Sure.</p>

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I hope I can find good friends (and maybe even a relationship with someone) when I head off to a college (hopefully, a good university).

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<p>Curious.</p>

<p>Well, powerfuldog, I want you to do something for me. Stick out your tongue and say, "Ahh"...</p>

<p>...That's all I need, thank you... Yep, welp, I'm diagnosing you with a moderate case of stage 3 Senioritis. Don't fret, it's that time of year. Give it a few months and it'll clear up, but keep your wits and grades up. </p>

<p>In the meantime, I'm awarding you with this membership badge, granting you the unlimited ability to sleep during homeroom, forget meaningless assignments, and show up five minutes late to school every day. Welcome to the club.</p>

<p>Every woman deserves a man who calls her baby, kisses her like he means it, holds her like he never wants to let her go, doesn't cheat or lie, wipes her tears when she cries, doesn't make her jealous of other women, instead makes other women jealous of her, is not scared to let his friends know how he really feels about her, and lets her know how much he really loves her.</p>

<p>The problem is you're focusing on the things in life that don't really matter. When I was a kid I had hopes and dreams. We all did. But over time, the daily grind gets in the way and you miss the things that really matter, even though they are right in front of you, staring you in the face. I think the next time you should ask yourself "Am I on the right track here?". I don't mean to be rude but people like you I really pity. So maybe you could use the few brain cells you have and take advantage of the knowledge I have given you now. Good luck.</p>

<p>I feel pretty much exactly like the OP, except my credentials aren't that good (they aren't bad either, just 'meh'). In fact, I wanted to try out for the Spring Musical for those reasons, but I've never sung before, and I was also a little late in finding the info that I needed in order to prepare properly. Also, while I have made a lot of friends, none of my relationships seem intimate enough to where we actually hang out outside of school..</p>

<p>Btw, I truly pity people like the poster above.</p>

<p>Wiscongene, you seem to have quite a bit of experience. Wouldn't you agree that feeling guilty over relationships in HS is a waste of time and I should be looking to move on to college now?</p>

<p>And when exactly should I expect this to clear up? Things are terrible...the girl I want to ask to prom is not willing, I need to maintain 3rd m.p. grades, pressure, etc...MAY SOME DIVINE FORCE HELP ME.</p>

<p>Actually, I can offer legit information.</p>

<p>A girl will not just go to prom with you. Get her to like you. If she doesn't, move on. Having a female companion CAN and WILL alter your current life. It's a great feeling OP, and it may be the key to your recovery.</p>

<p>609Represent, I definitely know that's a good idea...I'm just unconfident because my first choice was unwilling and I don't know if it is worth pursuing something at the end of hs. Maybe in college?</p>

<p>Maybe in college turns into maybe when I'm out of college, which turns into maybe when i pass by the bar, which turns into maybe later when i pass by the club.</p>

<p>If you didn't get your first kiss in high school, it's definitely not a good thing. Having a girlfriend in HS really makes you a better student and person overall.
I'm also not saying that not having a girlfriend or your first kiss is a bad thing, or means you won't be happy and successful. It's just a really beneficial thing.</p>

<p>Dating in high school is essentially "practice" for future, more longer term relationships...like marriage :)</p>

<p>Just my thoughts.</p>

<p>Prom? Girls? I thought you were just talking about second semester senior year in general.</p>

<p>Wiscongene that was quite the post above, +1 to you.</p>

<p>@ Wiscongene My confusion/depression stems from a variety of things, not just 2nd semester stuff. Wondering if you were going through the entire gamut of things I mentioned too...I just want all this confusion to clear up.</p>

<p>@609 C'mon, not everyone has their first kiss/relationship in HS...waiting until college can be fine, but if you've failed in your first attempt, it's so hard to muster the confidence needed to ask another. I know this sounds lame, but I gotta get out of my comfort zone.</p>

<p>Yes, I've realized that.
60% of students in my school probably haven't been in a relationship. </p>

<p>I know it's hard when it comes to girls. Hell, I was legit SHAKY and sweaty right before my first kiss. Even now, after dating multiple girls, I get nervous around the girl I like. It comes with time and if uni is the right time for you, then so be it. But it seems like you need a good friend right now. Why don't you try bonding with a male? No homosexuality intended. Just friendship.</p>

<p>@609Represent I'm vomiting heteronormativity and at the same time thinking "LOL marriage."</p>

<p>@powerfuldog Despite what 609Represent might have you believe, having a partner is not inherently a good thing. Moreover, being single is not the failure society would like you to think it is. If you find a girl, good for you, but I advise against seeking one out for the sole purpose of having someone to rely on. Dependent relationships are not healthy.</p>

<p>OP I feel almost exactly like you. I'm preparing for 7 AP exams and my current EC's are coming to an end (academic league, math league, etc). I'm trying to find SOMETHING to fill the void that is growing and hanging out with friends is not enough. I feel that the solution to the problem will be going off to college and I can NOT wait. I'm still waiting to hear back from colleges though like you. Right now, I'm starting to do a LOT of reading. I've chosen 10 classic, extremely reputable novels by authors such as Charles Dickens, Ernest Hemingway, etc, and am striving to read all 10 before I go off to college. Try doing what I'm doing and find a small project to occupy yourself in the meantime before going off to college!</p>

<p>Thanks Cortana. Glad that someone understands how I feel. I'd like to do the mini project on the side-I do Western music-but the stress of my exams takes away that time. My friends actually don't even want to hang out, so I'm not looking at them for a solution.</p>

<p>Hope college is better, and especially if I can get in a top school, I can meet, bond, and interact with kids who have passions similar to mine</p>

<p>Dude, I'm exactly where you are. I've been a good student throughout HS (not vale or salu or anything like that) and I'm all done applying to colleges, and now I'm just sitting here rotting, dreading doing my stupid government questions. I've got the classic ex-girlfriend who's out doing other cool stuff and hanging out with cooler people while I sit here and think about the past. I have the same exact routine every day, looking forward to the weekends, only to realize I'm still just as bored as I am in school. </p>

<p>But then again, it's February, arguably the lamest month there is. It's winter, everyone is counting down the large amount of days until spring break. No one's doing anything progressive or revolutionary, we're all just trying to get through and reach the other side in one piece and somewhat sane. Don't get too down on yourself, you've got a lot going for you, and little slumps like this happen to every high-schooler at some point. I'm not taking 7 ap's so my work load is significantly less, but next time you hit that I-refuse-to-do-anymore-homework-ever wall, take a break, maybe get some exercise, and breathe a little bit. It's not healthy to be a robot.</p>

<p>I hope so, dude. Pressure's ok, but this is something else...a lack of direction/worth I've never felt before in high school.</p>

<p>I really am starting to dislike school. Like I see no purpose in going to gym, or really any of my classes anymore. Off periods are usually very boring....</p>

<p>I'm kind of in the same boat. Ever since I got out of a long relationship and started my senior year I've avoided opening up to guys who were interested in me just because I knew it would eventually end since I'm going to college soon. Now I'm pretty lonely and all my friends have boyfriends so it makes it much worse. </p>

<p>Try to focus on your classes, because your grades still are important (no failing). But find time for hanging out with friends or going out once in a while.</p>

<p>Don't EVER get caught up on a girl that isn't head over heels for you. If she doesn't show you here interest in you and denies you then she won't change her mind. Just move on to the next one. You can get involved, just find a girl that wants the same thing, a companion until you go your separate ways in August. </p>

<p>Goodluck, I hope you feel better.</p>

<p>I felt the same way my senior year of high school. I was never very social and didn't have many friends in high school, but during the end of senior year, I realized that even the friendships I had, save one or two, weren't real. I had already been accepted to college, which was great but it may have made me feel more impatient with my surroundings. I regretted that I had never partied or taken a part in high school activities and spent so much time alone studying. </p>

<p>However I realized when i got to college that high school doesn't matter. No one cares about what you did there, it's a blank slate poor the most part. I have more friends than I ever had and these friendships are genuine. I go to and get invited to parties which was unheard of for me in high school. The schoolwork is much more enjoyable because people are passionate about it. </p>

<p>So basically what I am saying is that you shouldn't feel regret about what you can't change. Maybe you didn't have the best experience in high school, but that doesn't mean that you won't love college. Just think about the future and don't get bogged down by senior year.</p>