Hey guys,
Recently, I’ve been feeling a little burned out. I’m a Sophomore, going into Junior year… but I’m really not happy. My schedule this year was this:
U.S. History
Math H II (Alg. II, + 1 month of geometry)
Religion II
Programming I (CSS, HTML, ASP)
French II
Chemistry I H
English II H
Introduction to Engineering
I’ve never taken geometry before, and well, my teacher isn’t necessarily the greatest. I was doing fine, maintaining a B+ average in Alg II without ever having to study or pay attention (looking back, I realize my mistakes). I typically figured things out as I went. I’m struggling in geometry. Partly my fault because I can’t stay focused/learn anymore because of my schedule. I’m up until 2-3 a.m. doing homework every night, and this has really taken a negative toll on my sanity and my grades. Typically, I’m a 4.0 student. I’ve never had poor grades. I’ve sorta become complacent and stuck, and mentally worn out. I’ve lost enjoyment in things I used to love, and it just seems like the longer I go through this, the worse I become.
Classes have always come naturally to me, and I have a 3.8 GPA, but getting B’s and C’s is killing my confidence/desire. I’ve really started questioning my abilities lately, even though I know I’m typically one of the smartest in the class. I think I’ve overdone it because I have a lot of extracurriculars too… But I sort of cut my ties with most of them, yet I’m stuck in the same situation. I have no desire or motivation like I had previously.
I’m a pilot and I love anything aviation related, and I volunteer at my local airport doing maintenance on aircraft and am working towards my A&P license… But I can’t do any of this anymore. I’ve been on the verge of a mental breakdown from the courseload the past few weeks… Before summer, many of the teachers have overloaded us. I get 2-3 hours of homework a subject a night, on top of several projects and several other commitments. Because of just simply trying to get the work done, on time and correctly, I’m sacrificing my grades. I failed a math test today (grade already posted) and I’ve never, ever failed anything. I consistently have been getting C’s in Chemistry… I’m BSing my way through French and English and making it by with B’s… I know my courses don’t look hard when I type them out, but they’re the hardest my school offers. I just feel complacent and numb, sorta like a depression but I know it’s just from being burned out… I’m tired constantly… People ask me if I’m okay these days just by the tired look on my face… My brain is just fried it feels…
What do I do? Keep my schedule and make it work? No?
My schedule next year is this:
AP U.S. History
AP English III
H Physics (No AP offered)
H Precalc (No AP offered)
H French III (First year H offered)
H Programming two (First year H offered)
Religion III
H Engineering II i.e Fluid Mechanics (First year H offered)
I don’t know if I can carry this course load… I’m struggling really bad right now and I would rather do well than do poorly, but I don’t want to take average classes and just get by. I know I can get the A and put in the work, it’s just a matter of getting burned out or not having enough time, similarly to my situation now…
I want to focus on what I enjoy and wish to pursue, which is Aerospace Engineering… I just don’t know… Any recommendations on course load/classes?