<p>Academically, like in school, I’m doing fine. I go to one of the best private schools in new york city and I have a 3.5 uw, and this semester, I’m going to get like a 3.8-3.9, depending on my finals. My teachers like me. I mean, I’m not the class pet or anything, but they like me alright. And I have friends, and I’m in the most challenging classes offered. And I’m doing a ton of EC’s. On paper, I’m doing fine.</p>
<p>Now the problems: I have a really bad attendance record (not so bad that I’ll fail the year, but bad) and I go to school at 8am and get home at 8pm. No breaks except for a 40 minute lunch. Class ends at 5 and I do EC’s till 8. And I work till 3. And no, I can’t move down in anything (it has to do with the levels and timings and stuff- it’s the system). And it’s not hard, it’s just time consuming. I go to a Jewish school so I have 5 hebrew classes and 5 regular classes and art and gym and health. And I don’t get to choose any of my classes. My favorite subjects in general are math and english, but the english dept. at my school is really bad (no discussions, few papers, we get TESTS!, etc.). Thankfully, I have an amazing math teacher, so even though the math dept. is bad overall, I got lucky. I’ve had this teacher every single year in high school. I’m thinking of homeschooling because I’m sure that I would get more done that way, and I want to study things that interest me. I want to study philosophy, I want to read more, I want to learn psychology, I want to learn about outer space, I want to learn a new language (I speak french and spanish and my school doesn’t offer anything else), I want to take ballet, and I want to learn how to play tennis, among other things. I really like the idea of homeschooling because it would let me do what I wanted on my own time, so I could do a year of math in 2 weeks if I wanted to (I’ve done it before) or I could spend 3 months learning Greek philosophy, as long as I got the basics done by the end of the year. I know that I didn’t really effectively show you how much I hate my school, but it’s one of those things I can’t really explain. It’s just- just being there makes me miserable. </p>
<p>I learn really well on my own, and I test well, too. I’ve been tested, and I don’t want to sound pompous so I won’t say what I got on each test and all that, but I’m in the pg range (verbal) on the iq test (wisc-iv). I’m less overall (eg, I think) but I do have strengths. I took the math IIC SATII last year, and I got a 740. I took the psat’s and I did really badly (200) but I got like 3 hours of sleep the night before because I had homework to do (my school made us go to class after the psat’s and my teachers gave a ton of hw to do that night). When I took the practice tests (I took 2), I got a 2200 and a 2360. So I’m not stupid. I could do the work if I homeschooled, and I am motivated because as weird as it sounds, I actually like the whole idea of school. I like the idea of having a place to go to do nothing but learn. I just think that in the case of my school, the idea was executed poorly. </p>
<p>As far as friends and a social life go, I’m part of a writing program outside of school and I could take random classes like dance, tennis, whatever to meet people. I know that I would see people my age a lot less because I wouldn’t be spending my entire week with them, but I think I could manage. I would just go out with friends more (right now, I see my friends in school, but we like never go out on weekends).</p>
<p>I really like the idea of unschooling, but regular homeschooling would be sufficient. I’m just… idk, worried, I guess, because I don’t want colleges to think I’m weird because I homeschooled senior year. I mean, after all, I come from one of the best schools in America (b/c NY has some of the best schools in America, and mine is one of the best of New York) and I’m doing well, and I live in a city (not a farm or anything secluded like that) so wouldn’t it be weird? I mean, I doubt that many people homeschool in the city. So they might think I’m anti-social or just plain weird, and I’m afraid that they wouldn’t take me because of that. And NY state law requires you to get a GED if you homeschool, I think, and don’t colleges look down on that? </p>
<p>This is a huge decision, so I’m trying not to be hasty, but I’m kinda at the end of my rope here. I don’t know what I’ll do if I have to spend another year at my school. I was going to apply to boarding school (I even filled out a few applications!) but then my mom said that there was no way we’d be able to pay for it and there was no way I’d get FA (we’re above the cutoff but we have debts and stuff, so after taxes, we end up making a lot less than it seems at first glance) so it would be pretty pointless to even ask for teacher recs to apply. I wanted to apply to day schools in the city, but no school accepts new seniors so I couldn’t even apply anywhere. St. Anne’s said that I could send in the application and they would look at it if a space opened up, but spaces never open up there because the school is so popular (there are no grades- it’s progressive, but actually really good). I would apply to college, but right now, I have a fair chance at the UPenn/Columbia level (my school is connected and kids with lower everything than mine got into these schools from my school) and I don’t want doors to close just because I applied early. My dream school was Yale but my grades aren’t good enough, so I think I might want to go to UPenn, Wellesley, Swarthmore, or Brown, maybe, to name a few. I’m almost sure that I’d need senior year before I applied to any of the schools I named, but maybe I could apply to Barnard… I don’t know. I mean, I don’t know if they’d take me, but I do know that they’ve taken juniors in the past (past as in, before Columbia become coed). <em>sigh</em> I just want out. But without closing opportunities. Do you see what I mean?</p>
<p>So… advice? Any? Some? Please?
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