How can i make myself happy?

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<p>I’ve always been a firm believer in the idea that you can make yourself happy, but I’m starting to believe I can’t. </p>

<p>I was accepted into my dream school (the only school I’ve ever really wanted to get into). I got my roommate and everything, but when the financial aid office called me, I realized it wasn’t realistic to go there especially if I’m planning on doing medschool. So I figured, undergrad doesn’t really matter anyway so I went to my safety school. It’s a private school and though it’s technically more expensive, they’re private and able to give me a lot more money for my excellent grades.</p>

<p>Dream school:

  • Large (22,000 kids), beautiful environment (city), marching band (yes I’m that big of a nerd), I’ve visited nearly every weekend for the past 2 years (friends go there, so now it feels like home), doesnt have an official pre-med program, $30,000 a year</p>

<p>My school:

  • Small (1,500 kids), trains go by every 30 min LOUD and clear, theater major school (nothing really against them, but they look at things differently than I do), has a neuroscience program (I want to major in it), $5,000 a year down from $40,000 because of my academics, supposed to be a great academic school</p>

<p>Thing is I hate it here. The environment is atrocious, everything is disgusting and I hate the people. I never had to deal with drama before and I can’t handle the two-facing and the drama queens! People spend so much time trying to be different, but when someone is, they freak out on them. I can’t toss a ball around with anybody and I’m finding the words, “I’m watching my figure” coming from a man normal. I don’t have much against drinking & getting high, but that’s not my thing.</p>

<p>It’s only 4 years of my life though, right? I just need a degree and get into med-school. But the thing is, how can I make it better? I’m in clubs, but they’re the same people, same environment. I’m sick of kids trying to be “cool” and looking for some down-to-earth fun kids!</p>

<p>I need good academics, which is supposed to be here but I’m using the same books as high school (my HS was pretty good). The only school I want is my “dream school” but that’s not $$ reasonable. How can I survive it here? How can I get out of this stupid depression?</p>

<p>Someone please help …</p>

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<p>You need to figure out if it’s worth it to pay all that $$$ for your dream school. Are you willing to take out loans? Keep in mind that unlike most students, you have Med school, Residency, and whatever other hoops they make you jump through ahead. Taking out serious loans might not be worth it.</p>

<p>Cheap school doesn’t necessarily mean your current school. you sound fairly smart - there must be another college out there you can afford to go to that fits you better. Maybe the Honors college at your state school? state schools are generally diverse, both in terms of types of people and majors. </p>

<p>btw, I go to nyu and can totally relate to having a campus full of artsy drama queens who can’t get enough of themselves! (not that they’re all like that, but the ones that are are louder and more obnoxious, making it more annoying). I’m re-reading a lot of the same HS books too - but you read them more in-depth in college, you can get more out of them the second time around.</p>