Hey all. I don’t really post but this has been on my mind lately and has been driving me crazy. Pretty much I go to a liberal arts school in New York. I am a first year currently on my second term. During my admissions process, however, I turned down the University of Southern California because it was more expensive than my NY school. I thought I was being smart by choosing my NY college because its financial aid offer was too big to not pass and my parents losing their jobs during the pandemic made me want to pursue that school more, but I am regretting it immensely.
My college experience has not been ideal. I have made almost no friends, hate this location, and in general do not feel like I am at home at my current shool. Participating in school everyday has become a chore and both semesters I have just been counting down the days till the semester was over. This is most likely due to COVID but there is just nothing to do, also because it is in the middle of nowhere. I know the grass is always greener on the other side but I just think about how USC is a bigger school, how it must be easier to make friends, how it has a huge alumni network, how I love the location, and how its program for what I want to study is ranked higher than my current school. The more I research about potentially transferring, the more I want to pull my hair out for not choosing that school and the more I hate my current school.
I feel like it is one thing to go to a school because you were rejected but to know that you had the option to go to this school but you turned it down stings even more. How do I deal with this awful feeling as of now as it is too late to transfer for the next year?