I'm a flute player of four years by self-study, took private lessons for less than a year, bought my own silver flute for about a year, and i would like nothing more than to major in flute performance in the very threateningly close future.
Due to my (highly) informal education in flute-playing (i played piano before that, so i wasnt a COMplete musical idiot), I have several doubts of my ability. Currently i'm preparing Doppler's Fantaisie Pastorale Hongroise for an youth orchestra rehearsal, and is burning through Anderson Op.33, and me who for 4 years is certainly better than a lot whom began at AGE 4. I realize the highly competitive nature of the flute community (understatement) and have no illusions about my own flute-playing, but i still think i could be able to handle a music school/conservatory education. A flute professor once spoke that prospective students are not judged on their ability, but by whether they can learn all that the professor has to teach.
And i learn quickly.
The biggest obstacle to the first step (gaining confidence) is finance. The sole reason i didnt take private lessons early on or buy a flute early is the $$$ ($80 for an hour of lessons and music teaching is still supposed to be the lowest paying job?!).
I'm still highly perplexed to why most youth orchestras, besides the very best(like SFSYO), charges the MUSICIANS to play, to WORK for the organization.
Both my parents are engineer types and i can actually see them not allowing me to even apply for a music major and forcing me to get a science degree or engineering degree. They're right about these subjects being easier to get a decent job, and i do have nightmares about playing in a park to beg for money (i would play in a park for free if i could cuz that's cool).</p>
<p>I would really appreciate some help to solve my dilemma and would love some input about how you guys (parents and other students) really made (severely) limited financial resources work and support music playing.</p>
<p>Thanks (for reading my grievances)</p>