<p>evitaperon, this really isn’t a good place for you to get answers to these questions. I’ll say again what I have said before: you need to stop the “do it yourself” approach. You need to be under medical care. Whether it’s at Callen-Lorde or somewhere else. </p>
<p>That said, I am sure that there are online forums and message boards – even yahoo email groups, if such things still exist! – for young trans people, in which you can ask just about anything and get an informed answer. There are also plenty of places with information about hormones for trans people.</p>
<p>And Pizzagirl is right: I am not a doctor. I can tell you, however, that you should abandon any and all harebrained schemes like the ones you mention. Think about it. Estrogen – whether in patches or gel, and certainly not when you inject it – is NOT a topical medication. Injecting it where you suggest isn’t going to make any difference at all in where it has an effect or how much of an effect it has. It goes in your bloodstream, and doesn’t somehow magically know where you’ve injected it and decide to stay where you put it! Do you think that injecting it in your rear end or your thigh (I was taught at Callen-Lorde how to do the latter, even though I fainted the first time I did it to myself!) specifically affects those places? It doesn’t. And I"m pretty sure that the same is true of gel and patches. The reason for those delivery methods has nothing to do with where the estrogen has an effect; it has to do with reducing certain risks of oral estrogen, like blood clots, effects on the liver, etc. </p>
<p>The very fact that you ask questions like these concerns me, and convinces me even more that you need to be under a doctor’s care. </p>
<p>The massive weight loss you’re planning sounds medically dangerous to me as well. And please don’t think that you have to be a certain weight in order to be perceived as a woman. It’s just not true. One of the main reasons to go through this whole process in the first place is to be more comfortable in your body, and I’m not sure that a starvation diet is good way to achieve that. </p>
<p>But please, please find a doctor to whom you can raise these questions, and who can address all your medical needs. I’m certainly not qualified – and, equally certainly, don’t want to undertake responsibility – for giving you medical advice. So as much as I do care, I really don’t want to keep having to try to answer these kinds of questions for you. </p>
<p>Please take care of yourself, by allowing someone to take care of you.</p>