<p>I am a worthless pile of rubbish. I turned down a full scholarship to UCSD, a fine institution, to go to UPenn, the most expensive choice I could have made. Looking back, that was a ridiculously selfish decision. Sure, my parents could afford it, but at what cost? My brother will be going to a private next year, likely with no scholarship. My parents HAVE been saving and they have a plan and all, but what if my selfishness causes them to lose their current standard of living? My mom has always dreamed of having a home in Saratoga. What if I have crushed her dream? And I’ve always been such a horrible daughter. I never listen to her, I always make her life hard. I’ve never helped around the house, I’ve never held a steady job, I’ve been utterly useless. And now I’m just gobbling up $200,000 from her to fulfill myself. All my mother has done is give me everything and sacrifice so much to help me. It was my one chance to pay her back some, and I threw it away. I hate myself. I am a stupid, whiny, selfish leech.</p>
<p>can’t you possible call ucsd and say that you would still like to make a deposit, that you were rejecting ucsb and make a mistake thinking that ucsd was ucsb. or something like that?</p>
<p>I might try to make you feel better about yourself if this didn’t feel like a shoddy excuse to brag about going to UPenn.</p>
<p>Your loss. Have fun at Penn.</p>
<p>Girl, you need to just relax and take a deep breath. These thoughts seriously lead to suicide. You are going to an Ivy League school in an amazing, busy, cosmopolitan city, and you can pay your parents back all the money they spent after you graduate and start making the big bucks right off the bat. No worries. Life is too short to think about the things you are obviously writing on this post because you are afraid to tell your parents how you truly feel (selfish biotch). Enjoy your time, and you can always get an internship/scholarship while you are in college. (think Fulbright, Rhodes, Goldwater, or other scholarships for outstanding current undergraduates). 
Don’t Stop Believin’ . Chow.</p>
<p>Here’s one thing you can do to make things better:</p>
<p>Do well at Penn. Study/work hard, play hard, get involved in the community, etc…just make the best out of your 4-years there.</p>
<p>I guarantee you that if you do this, your parents will think that the money to send you to Penn was money well spent.</p>
<p>Good luck!</p>
<p>are you trying to get others to justify your decision to use her money?
if you love her so much then why don’t you work your ass off at penn and buy her that house in saratoga</p>
<p>Well, now that you have come to the realization that you’ve been acting like a child, it’s time to change your behavior. Continuing to whine about how awful you are - not mature. Taking time every day to be grateful for what you have and the selflessness of others - better. Making an effort to pay back to your family and society for the gifts they have given you - now you get the idea.</p>
<p>So here’s the plan:</p>
<p>go to UPenn - get an insanely good job coming out of an Ivy League institution - buy your mom a house wherever she wants to retire to</p>
<p>ummmm you wanna know what disappointing you parents is? it’s being a lazy bum all throughout high school and therefore barely making it into a decent college. college accpetances were hell because i got the dreaded “you could have done better” from my parents. your parents should just be happy they have a kid who got into a freakin ivy league school man. it’s your education…i’m sure they aren’t too upset that you are attending U Penn. don’t worry…</p>
<p>what about trying to be appreciative to your parents?</p>
<p>That would probably mean a lot to them.</p>
<p>Your parents only want what’s best for you and want to see you happy. If Penn is your “best fit” as far as colleges go, then your parents will be happy to send you there. If you’re that worried about the money, get a job while at school, and when you get out of school, work your tail off to pay them back.</p>
<p>Don’t back out on a fine school like Penn if the only thing holding you back is the money. These things work out, I promise!</p>
<p>Haha thanks, all. I’m kind of a loser. I’ll try my best :)</p>
<p>You’ll be paying your parents back every time someone asks them where their kid goes to college. They will glow with pride when they say Penn. Sometimes the nicest thing you can do for somebody is to let them sacrifice for you (makes them feel noble and worthwhile).</p>
<p>You’ll probably make enough money in the long-run as a UPenn graduate to pay back your parents and then some… It’s not like all that tuition is a sunken investment… :rolleyes:</p>
<p>my sister passed up a full ride at emory to go to penn full tuition and she couldnt be happier. She visited both and decided that there was no place shed rather be then Penn. My parents love her and were happy in supporting her in her decision. You’ve worked hard and gotten into an ivy league institution. Most likely your parents have been saving for thsi day since you were born. Dont feel bad. Have fun at penn.</p>
<p>Two words: community college</p>