<p>I’m a freshman at a state school about 2 hours away from my home town. Now, I never thought I would get homesick but every time I’m here I long to be back and away from this school. I thought things would get better after the first semester but I just find myself getting more and more miserable.</p>
<p>This wasn’t a school that I wanted to go to in the first place. In fact I didn’t know much about it until I got a letter after a competition offering me scholarship money if I auditioned there. I’m a theater major and I wanted to go to a school where I could double major and also study theater with other people that didn’t want to abandon more traditionally scholarly pursuits. This school offered an easy double major and gave me a full ride, so though I was accepted to my dream school NYU, I had no way of paying the $50k a year they wanted after financial aid (my parents make enough money that I don’t get much aid, but not enough to help me pay for school. Sucks.) so I went with my only full ride offer.</p>
<p>I don’t fit here at all. It seems like no one here really cares about anything except getting drunk and getting a degree and I don’t know how to talk to people who’s only interests are parties and talc reality shows. I’m sure there are plenty of people here smarter than me, but it feels like I’m speaking a different language than most people here. It’s a completely different culture of people – I’m used to challenging honors and AP classes and students who really cared about their grades and weren’t embarrassed to be smart.</p>
<p>Here the classes are even easier than they were in high school, most of my professors have never worked in their field, and most of the students are the kind that thought their teacher was “a real ■■■■■” if they expected them to participate.</p>
<p>No one here understands my sense of humor, which feels awful because back home that was kind of my thing - I was the funny one! This is a sciences school so everyone thinks I’m an idiot because of my major. Others think I’m arrogant or superior just because I like to talk about something besides toddlers in tiaras and weed and want to do something else with my weekend than get drunk in a filthy frat basement.</p>
<p>I don’t feel welcome on my floor, half of which leaves on the weekend at this largely commuter school. My roommate is constantly complaining about me, rarely goes to class, does stupid,very illegal things all the time, and while one second I feel like we’re friends, the next she’s just downright rude or condescending to me. No one includes me in anything. I have plenty ideas of things I’d like to do but no one that wants to do it with me (no one I’m acquainted with is ever up for anything except drinking). I feel like I have no one to talk to about any of this. My twin sister is loving her school and never has time to talk to me because she’s always studying (she goes to Cornell, a school that’s actually challenging and full of intelligent people.)</p>
<p>People say join a club but there aren’t that many clubs here and the ones that exist no one really cares about, even the people in them. I’d start an acapella group but I don’t have any friends and one lame, hardly music literate person does not an acapella club make. People say that in a school like this with 13k students there’s every kind of person, buticant find anyone like me. Which makes sense, because why would someone like me go to a place like this? The only reason I’m in the unique situation of having good grades and says and being a theater major-- most here had to be specially admitted.</p>
<p>I’m so depressed here. The only thing that gets me through is the idea that I might be able to transfer next semester, but it’s becoming very clear to me that that dream is very unlikely. My dad will not allow me to leave unless I get another full ride somewhere else (unlike my twin, who is a stem major and is less likely to be crippled by debt). I don’t know what to do. I’ve applied other places but I know my chances are slim. Do I apply more places as a stem major and just go there (despite my hate for the sciences and my dream to have a job I actually enjoy)? I can’t bear to be here another year. I’d rather drop out. I’m so lonely and I’m getting nothing from my classes. I feel so trapped and bored and lonely here and I can’t stand it.</p>
I actually get along with the people on my hall, but they’re all in engineering and science, and I’m sort of the token minority pretentious writer…They’ve all become best friends, and I’m just sort of that girl who tags along. I’m with everyone else–transfer! Deadlines usually come up in March, so you probably should get started. I don’t know if SUNY schools offer scholarships like Georgia schools do, but if you have a certain GPA and SAT score, you get free tuition. If your state offers anything like that, then you should take advantage of it. I would just choose one of the better SUNYs if I were you. I really don’t know a lot about them, being from Georgia, but since I’ve actually heard of them, I’m sure that some of them are worth attending.