HELP PLEASE!!!
I have been debating about transferring out of my college (St John Fisher University) to go to SUNY Brockport to be a dance major since Freshman year. I’m currently a sophomore marketing major at SJF, but would choose to double major if I transferred. This last semester I ended up taking a modern dance class at Bport and took the rest of my classes at Fisher. Even before the semester started I told myself that I was going to transfer to Bport for the spring and stuck with that plan up until the last week of school. The last week was really hard because I started having doubts that I was making a mistake and I wanted to stay, even moving out was hard and I procrastinated it until the very last minute because I didn’t want to move out of my dorm. It has now almost been a month and I still have yet to decide where I want to go, but I need to decide by the end of the week because classes at Fisher start the 16th.
The only thing wrong with Fisher is I felt unfulfilled with the dance aspect. They do not have a major/minor, only a student-run club and an occasional dance course if its not cancelled because nobody signs up. They have a phenomenal marketing program that I really love, I love living on campus in a dorm, it feels like home, basically everything about it except the dance and the price. I didn’t realize how much I would miss learning dance and at the time while I was looking at colleges I felt very overwhelmed and I should have put more effort into finding a college that had both and had really good programs in both. I ended up settling with Fisher because it was my favorite out all the ones I looked at and I was running out of time so I didn’t have time to find another choice. Of course the one college that was my top choice didn’t have a dance program.
Brockport is known for their dance program and thats the main reason I would go there in the first place. It has a marketing program, but not near the level of Fisher’s, so I feel like there won’t be as many good paying job opportunities when I graduate from brockport (I dont know if this is true - I have been told that employers might favor a Fisher grad over a brockport grad). Its way cheaper because its public and I would also live at home since I live nearby so less student loans but I’m afraid that I will have a lot of fomo and I have social anxiety so its already hard for me to connect with people. I don’t know what I want to do when I graduate. I would get to do marketing and dance, but is it worth giving up everything I have at Fisher for one thing at brockport? But if I decide to not transfer, would I be doing myself a disservice by not even trying to see if my one passion will take me anywhere? If I do transfer would that hinder the potential success of my marketing career which is where I will be making the most money since dance is not a reliable income?
I keep going back and forth and its getting me nowhere. I feel like I have tried everything, pro/con list, talking to friends/family and advisors, watching advice from youtube videos. Any other suggestions? Should I just flip a coin? or use Wheel Decide? I don’t know which choice will make me happier.
If I really wanted to transfer wouldn’t I have just done it. I don’t know if its the overthinking/anxiety thats keeping me from just transferring or if its a sign that I really don’t want to leave. Is the answer obvious but i’m just clouded by the thoughts of failure and regret. I’m really struggling.