(I don’t like being cocky, I just don’t know how to present this with any more honesty)
My achievements everywhere else are probably of the highest caliber compared to any of my peers. I’ve taken the most advanced track that my school could give me, ranking first out of our small senior group of 110, with a 4.0 GPA unweighted. I’ve taken many positions as captain for two of our sports teams, as senior member of academic extracurriculars, and as president of our student council. With those positions, I’ve been very involved around my school, seemingly living on campus most of the time. I have weird hobbies and activities that help my school in many ways, such as film production, which aided in the creation of my school’s STEM accreditation video (of which certified our school).
I have so much confidence in all those aspects of my certification, that I am passionate to write as many essays that it would take to show my willingness for a higher education…
…every aspect, except for my standardized test score.
I’ve just retaken the SAT, and received a worse score than when I took it March of Junior Year (1350 → 1320). I only have the October Test date left before early admissions to my reach schools (MIT, USC, Stanford), and am losing faith in my ability to perform well in a test setting; I only realized how important the SAT truly was the end of my Junior Year, and didn’t really know how to improve until the beginning of my Senior Year. I thought that I studied well enough for the August test, and just completely blew it. That was when I had a more flexible schedule. Now, my schedule is pretty tight, and I don’t know when I’ll have the time and energy to study for it. I’ve also used up the fee waivers, so now my parents will actually have to pay for it.
If it’s any consolation, I was accepted into my safety school(ASU), and will most likely get into their honors college (yay).
It’s not the end of the world for me. I just have so much ambition.
Looking at it critically, it all seems petty. The easiest solution is to just study and recuperate any damage dealt in other aspects of my high school career. The application process is stressful, time consuming, and small imperfections within my application just make me feel like my entire being is worth less. The incentive to improve becomes clouded with the emotions of mediocrity.
If any of you could help me create a better study schedule, that would be greatly appreciated.
If you have any insight on how those stats look in college admissions, that would also be helpful.
For anyone who has been in similar positions, could you tell me how you made it through senior year?
Sorry for venting.
Thank you for reading.