I just finished my Freshmen year of college and I got kicked out of my major: Film. I go to a school that’s impacted with film majors. The problem happened when I failed the same class twice, fashion. I know it sounds really dumb. If I hadn’t failed the class twice I would have a 3.0 GPA.
What happened is that I was eager to be as involved in college as possible. I took on two jobs(paying for my own food and gas), 18 units and 3 clubs. On top of that, because of my involvement in clubs people had began to notice me and called me onto their Junior and Senior shoots. This was of course, a privilege, to be the only freshmen in a upper division final project. I couldn’t say no. I ended up quitting one of my jobs during mid semester and was able to drop one of my courses, without penalty.
The first time I failed my fashion class was because a misunderstanding of the online final, the teacher stated it would be up Monday through Tuesday, what I didn’t know was that she meant Tuesday 12AM. So I missed that final. The second semester, I had assumed the exam would be up for the whole day also since it was the same class, but the teacher instead only left a 2 hour gap to take it online. So I missed it as well. On top of everything, that month had been insane for me. I had gotten into a car crash only a couple of days before, I was dealing with the insurance company and the fear of telling my family. I had been looking for apartments for next semester. And finally, I had been started up on new medications for Depression and Anxiety.
I fully take responsibility for not being responsible with my finals. However, I do truly feel like I should be able to stay in the film major. I have spent no time in college partying or being lazy. Everyday (especially weekends) has fully involved film, going to sets at 4am or driving up to the mountains for a student shoot and working in 30F cold. I have spent so much of my personal money on other people’s shoots. I worked so hard, I sleep deprived myself, I came back to my dorm at around 1am everyday, and on top of that I have a mild insomnia where it takes me 1-2 hours to fall asleep (my mom also has it).
I understand that I had insanely cluttered up so many responsibilities and not taken care of myself. I understand that I cannot take up so much for the next semester.
But if anyone has any idea of what I can do.
My counselor says that she doesn’t think I can do anything else, but I do not believe it. I’m sure you can always do something as long as you put enough effort.
Thank you.