I would start this off by telling you guys my name but I’m too embarrassed and ashamed but I was hoping that it’s possible for me to get back into my current school I love this school but my grades are low and it’s simply because I didn’t read and I didn’t go to any of my classes I beat myself up everyday just wishing I could go back and change that
Go find a counselor at your school, academic and maybe psychological.
Clearly you weren’t ready to go to college, might want to take some time before trying to get back.
First, stop beating yourself up. Stop it now. The semester is done and there’s no way to change it. Next, find an adult you trust to talk to. They may be a family member, a former teacher, a religious leader, a counselor…find someone. You may be dealing with depression. Or you may be going to college for reasons other than to invest in yourself. Or maybe something else going on in your life that has your attention. Whatever it is, ask for help. Lots of people have gotten off to a rocky start in college and gone on to be successful, either with or without a college degree.
Hang in there!
College Life
I’m sure you do love your college-- but look at the way you describe it. It sounds like you signed up for a semester of partying and no school.
First and foremost, I think you need to stop and determine WHY you chose that course of actions. Was it simply your first shot at independence, and you got carried away? Or was there something more at play? If you don’t attack the cause, I suspect that history will simply repeat itself.
Here’s what I suggest: spend the next 2 years proving that the immaturity that caused all those F’s is a thing of the past. See whether you can register for your local community college for the spring semester-- though it may be too late as classes may start this week. (Try TODAY if they’re open.) Get your Associate’s Degree there. And be the kind of student you know you can be… the kind of student whose grades got him accepted to that school in the first place. Then, in 2 years, consider whether you still want to try to gain re-admittance to last semester’s school or whether the cards now hold some other plan for you.
If not, (and maybe “in addition”), get a part time job. Contribute financially to your household–ask mom and dad if you can pay some minimal amount of money as rent. (I’m talking a token contribution here, not real rent figures.) Do laundry-- your own and some part of the rest of the work load. Fill and empty the dishwasher. Put the garbage cans out and return them afterwards. You get my drift. Prove to mom and dad… and to yourself… that you’re willing to behave as an adult.
Big picture, you lost a semester-- and probably a pretty substantial amount of money. That’s all. You’re not in jail. You didn’t hurt anyone, you didn’t do anything that can’t be fixed.
So find the causes and fix them.
Why didn’t you read or go to classes?
What were you doing instead?
If it was partying, then maybe you should take some time off and work or join the military.
If it was mental /physical health issues, maybe you should get them addressed.
Perhaps you should attend your local Community college for a year or two and then transfer when you are ready.