@Zannah First of all I never said that I put the picture on the internet. They were for me only. I am not defending my crime, I am just saying that her reputation was not hurt at all. I also am walking this spring graduation because my lawyer is a boss.
I honestly think that what I did was not so wrong as it was creepy. I think I have some problems with sex and there is definitely something wrong with my mind. I have been having messed up thoughts lately and I only see my counselor every other week. She says I might have a conduct disorder or something. Thoughts of suicide are coming, and I hate them. I used to have such a positive outlook on life, and even if I do end up getting my degree before the President officially expels me, I don’t know if I will be able to do anything in this life. I am grateful for this body, but sometimes I just hate my past. I hate how I hurt people. And most of all I hate the unwanted thoughts that come into my mind.
I am trying to change, but I still feel like I am in a shell of regret. I cant think about anything else than my past and future, rather than what is important now.