<p>College time comes around, and I realize a few things:</p>
<p>My school is disputably (2nd to a specialized tech school) the best school in my borough. It takes the top 10% of my area based on standardized testing. The honors course of overall BRUTAL against freshmen (I studied about 3-4 hours a night at one point before I gave up, after getting a fairly mediocre 87 average, which oddly was the top quarter of my school.) Sophomore year, I lost my scholarship due to a very incompetent French teacher (main sinkhole for my freshmen year grades as well). Now, when I’m a junior, I’m in an experimental yet accepted college pre-cal class, in an experimental college level latin course (which has been extremely brutal as well, considering I’ve learned almost no Latin in my time there). My class rank for my 2 years invested has been 100/330 (86.88). My only hope is right now, pulling off a godlike GPA during finals and this last quarter (which seems to be about a 93 unweighted GPA, which translates to a 96) to get me into spot 85/330, which seems pretty tough when I look at it, since my average is going to go up 2 points most likely. I’m in the top 10% of my school as of now, if not the top 5%, but this won’t be reported on my transcripts. I’m in a ton of EC’s and did plenty of volunteer work. I actually ENJOY science and math, and my grades aren’t great representatives of that (Math A and Math B were tedious for me, I could never grasp the stupid curriculum the NY board of regents created.)</p>
<p>Present day, I’m looking for everything to last minute bolster my application. I have my hopes set on RPI (Rensselaer Polytechnic Institute), which has gained a ton of fame recently. I’m applying for early decisions ASAP, going for an interview during a campus visit, and I’m working on a great essay. The truth is, I have no other family except a mother and father who are immigrants from Poland, so just imagine my financial situation and how many hooks I have. Really, I have nothing to guarantee success, except going to a good grad school (I’m thinking about studying Physics, Biochem, or Biotech). My SAT scores have yet to come in but I felt I did decent, but of course I feel insecure in that fact. On practice SAT’s I usually get high 1300s and 1400s. </p>
<p>I’m just really going crazy.</p>