<p>There are several things standing in my way. #1 is myself. I am not an independent person, but I know that I can be. My parents do everything for me and I hate.it. I live in California and I might apply to USC but truthfully, I don’t want to go there. It’s only 15 minutes away from my house. I want to get away from my parents and be truly independent because I hate that I feel like I need my parents to do everything. I mean when I flew to Vancouver alone when I was 16, my mom was freaking out but it was one of the best times of my life. I loved flying alone (I’m usually with my mom and two sisters when we fly to the east coast every year) being alone, visiting a new place, and not feeling like a co-dependent sack of…crap, was so great.</p>
<p>My mom and I are supposed to visit NYC this spring. I have never been. I’m 90% sure that I’ll love it, but I need to go NOW! What if I don’t like it…the deadline is April 1st. Also, I plan on applying to Tisch, my major is film. Another issue…my grades.</p>
<p>I suck at math. I am absolutely terrible at it. English, psychology, film, and sometimes history are my strengths. I do not want to look at another math book, ever again. If my only responsibilities for the next 6 months were only to apply to Tisch/work on my portfolio I would be filled with absolute bliss. But alas, no. I’ll spend my days and nights sobbing all over my math textbook. I know that for USC I only need one more math class, which I’ll be taking in the spring, but I’m not sure about NYU’s requirements. If I don’t get in because of my math grades, I am going to flip out. I am in community college because of math. If I had to take English/film classes for the rest of my life, I gladly would. It’s not that I don’t like to work hard, I just don’t like math! If I am interested in something, I am so down for the challenge. I know that’s not how life works…blah blah blah.</p>
<p>Alright, I’m sorry. This is getting long. My questions are:</p>
<p>-Will my lack of math hurt my chances of getting into NYU?
and
-Will I ever be able to be completely independent without having a nervous breakdown?</p>
<p>You don’t have to answer the second one.</p>
<p>I took pre-Algebra and I got a “D”. I cannot even express how absolutely embarrassing that is. I’m taking Math 40 right now and I’m doing well, so far…I need Math 73 to transfer to USC and then I’m done. Math will be the end of me. </p>
<p>If I don’t get into NYU I am going to join a circus or just live in the woods. I’m so serious.</p>
<p>I JUST WANT TO WRITE AND MAKE MOVIES FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. And paint and watch Bob Ross paint.</p>