<p>So I took SAT prep classes last year because I wanted to study in the States for college… I was thinking of taking the exams throughout my junior year… However, I was so caught up with my school work and really didn’t have that much time to study for the SATs.</p>
<p>I am not saying that the only reason I didn’t study was because I had a lot of school work… I was also very stupid and thought that I had a lot of time… in the future.</p>
<p>However, I was wrong. I haven’t taken ANY SATs yet. And I am really screwed because I am soooo behind.</p>
<p>I feel like I am the biggest jerk because my parents always reminded me to study for SATs… throughout this year…</p>
<p>Sigh… I have REALLY high goals… I mean, I would LOVE to go to New York University and study there… and herhaps many other good schools like Brown, Dartmouth, UCs, etc. I think my gpa is good… it’s 3.9? and I do lots of extra-curricular activities and volunteering… </p>
<p>I am planning on taking a lot more prep classes this summer… (SAT I, two SAT II subjects) in Korea. My mom went there and talked to them… and apparently they laughed at me because… I had such high goals… without great scores. I cried when she told me this. I felt so stupid…</p>
<p>People at the prep school told my mom that I don’t have enough time… and I would not be able to go to my dream schools… How depressing, eh?</p>
<p>And I am NOT good at SAT… I am good at school work… because I work really hard… and try to understand something until I get it… But I must admist that I am REALLY stupid. I guess it is time for me to finally realize that top schools are not the right schools for me… But I WANT to go to those good schools really badly… I’ve dreamt about it for sooo long. </p>
<p>Everything sounds stupid… right? I mean… if I really wanted it… why did I not try hard? Why did I not take time every night practicing and preparing for the exam? I don’t want to go to a crappy state university. :(</p>
<p>My mom told me that she paid $10,000 for the prep classes for this summmer… $10,000 FOR TWO MONTHS OF SAT!!!
I don’t want my parents to spend so much money on my education… They’re already paying SOOO much… since I am studying in Canada as an international student. I feel so SOOORRRY for my parents… </p>
<p>I must say that I am very disappointed in myself. </p>
<p>Do you think I can do it? Oh my God… I just needed to talk to someone…</p>