I suck

<p>I suck so much. I wasted my whole Fall Break (2 weeks) studying for the PSAT and then majorly screwed up today morning. I've been playing soccer for 8 years, and recently I've been sucking like crazy (enough so that I'm in danger of getting kicked off the team and even closer to quitting by myself). My parents spent 120 dollars on PSAT books and I wasted those too, so they grounded me for two weeks which includes my two best friends' 16th birthday parties (one of them is going on right now and I'm missing it) and I feel like crap about it. I've gone from being one of the smartest kids in my school to one of the dumbest. My rank dropped from 2/459 to 80ish/470ish from frosh year to junior year. I'm getting horrible grades for the first time in my life. I suck completely. I'm so f'ing depressed too. Just had to get this out. Thanks.</p>

<p>You should just relax. Do your best and be happy with that, even if others are not.</p>

<p>I was actually in a similar situation with my grades. I went from a 3.86 semester GPA to a 2.9 the next semester. Sometimes, you just have a bad semester. Let it go and live to fight another day.</p>

<p>Don't worry, there is someone who just punched even numbers of 2 to 50, odd numbers from 1 to 49, and all numbers from 1 to 48 in my calculator, and even got the wrong answer!! And yeah, I'm still proud of me :)</p>

<p>lol @ northwestlover</p>

<p>It's not just that though. I have nowhere to go. People make fun of me at school, and my parents taunt me about being depressed at home. In my opinion, you have to suck pretty bad for your parents to make fun of you. So, a lot of times I just get on the bus and ride it through the whole route for like four hours because it's not school nor is it home and I can occupy myself by memorizing the bus stops and routes. It's more fun than feeling suicidal.</p>

<p>try weed, it actually helped me profoundly... lol</p>

<p>That is unfortunate that you do not have a physical sanctuary. Do you have a job? If not, get one. It will give you something to do. And you will make money. Whatever you do, don't give up. Live happily even if it seems no one wants you to.</p>

<p>what i have found, is, dont associate with other smart people, unless there are some hot chicks, then its ok.... smart people back stab, manipulate, and will screw u over for there own personal advantage, making u depressed and hate yourself and **** up in school, and what not... associate with less smart people, they will inturn introduce u to more normal people who are loyal and true friends, and u can have a normal social life. when you have anormal social life youll do better in school and be happier.</p>

<p>yea man, just start smoking pot and hang out with dumbasses. You'll be fine in no time.</p>

<p>im in top 1% of class, 1520 SAT</p>

<p>Sounds like you are under a whole lot of pressure. Is there someone you can talk to about it? Some adult other than your parents? A counselor at school, someone at church, a teacher, or advisor to some ec you're involved with? Maybe an aunt, uncle, grown up cousin or family friend? It would make you feel a whole lot better and be more productive than spending four hours riding the bus. </p>

<p>Find someone this week to talk to. It will make you feel better just to take a step towards doing something to help yourself, I think. Oh -- and forget about the PSAT -- honest. You have many more chances.</p>

<p>the more stressed u r , the worse youll do, its a down ward spiral</p>

<p>120 dollars for psat books! damn must have been expensive books
i agree with everything mattistotle said
do it</p>


<p>I spend my time haunting the libraries. </p>

<p>Anyway, I hope you find someone to talk to and keep us updated! </p>


<p>for sats and psats , all u gotta do is memorize words, i spent a week memorizing words and got my verbal from 650 to 740</p>

<p>for math and writing just do like 2 practice tests, and there u go</p>

<p>If at any point you were 2nd in your class, you have potential and will always. Talk to your coach, tell your teammates what's going on, don't worry about your parents they'll deal with themselves... Never even consider suicide! Just think of all of the people who are less fortunate/less talented/etc who can handle it. Also talk to your guidence counselor... eventhough s/he may seem cold, his/her job is to help and I have found that most of the time they care (and if they don't make it your mission to get them fired... hey, atleast you'll have something to do :) )</p>

<p>Good luck, and never give up!!</p>

<p>dont talk about suicide or being depressed it makes u more depressed and it makes people be annoyed of you. Its ok to talk about it once in a while to get some stuff of your chest, but never make talking about being depressed or suicidal a daily or even weekly thing.</p>

<p>i know ill be flamed for saying that, but it is true, and i know from many many many examples in my life</p>

<p>CCerforlife, I'm sorry to hear about your situation. I agree w/ SAC. Talk to your school's counselor or some other adult you trust. Talk to teachers you like as well. If you're truly serious about school, they will help you find solutions to your situation. Believe me, it gets better. It really does. </p>

<p>I was pretty depressed as a kid too and didn't really get along with my family either. One time in junior high my mom found my diary, and not only did she read it, she phoned my aunts, talked about what I wrote and made fun of me in front of my face. I could have killed her. I was very introverted back then because I had a lot of self-esteem and identity issues and felt I had no one I could talk to. When I was in the 8th grade, I became incredibly depressed and contemplated suicide via overdosing. Because my dad's a doctor, we always had a lot of drugs at home. As I was about to do it, something snapped in me. For some reason, I knew that I wasn't supposed to die that night. Somehow, I suddenly realized that I wasn't born into this world just to die at 13. From that moment on, I never thought of suicide again, instead I began to harness all my energy and frustrations to go after what I wanted in life. I became fiercely independent and focused and surprisingly managed to graduate valedictorian of my high school and get into my dream school. </p>

<p>Frankly, it pains me to no end when I meet extremely depressed and/or suicidal kids, because I know how it feels, and it doesn't have to be that way. </p>

<p>Seriously, reach out to someone for help. No matter what, believe in yourself, and keep your chin up. One day (though you may not see it today), you may rule the world.</p>

<p>Learning New Vocab Helps So Much!!</p>

<p>ccerforlife- i totally agree</p>