I got into a university and I really want to go. The issue is with my parents is that I’m going to have to dorm there since it’s over an hour away from where I live, raising the cost. I did the fasfa process with my mom. According to the school’s portal that linked me to an awards page, the total cost of attendance was like $36,000 but the net cost ended up being about $9000 (surver is down so I can’t check the exact numbers, also it said something about the federal work study system… Someone explain?) My mom says that’s still not good enough though 
She hasn’t looked at the page with all the awards listed yet. But even then I feel like she’s going to pressure me out of not going to this school. I made the grave mistake of not applying to more schools, like state schools (could’ve been cheaper). I really want to have that college experience and move out and see what opportunities are out there. I like home, but it’s really time for me to make that leap.
I just want to be happy. But I’ve been miserable and upset this entire month. Instead of being happy for myself that I got into college, I’ve only been crying. I’m getting so much pressure from my parents about everything. I feel torn apart and scared. I don’t know anything about money, nor what I’m getting myself into. I’ve worked my butt off these past four years and I’m top 9% of my class, and I feel like I’m just going to throw all of that away. I tell myself that when I’m an older adult and have my career set that I can pay off my debts on my own, but my mom laughed like that was impossible. I’m going for a science major, biology. I don’t know if I’ll go to medical school. I’ve always liked the idea of becoming a dietician. They just don’t make a lot of money in California though 
What would be the smart choice?? Is it normal I feel this way? Are other people in my place? Would I be able to get through this financially?
Before anyone suggests I talk to my high school counselors: they are no help and have no patience with students.
Also please excuse my whiny tone, I apologize. I’m just really stressed out at the moment.