@ItsJustSchool is right to say that often a change in venue doesn’t alter the underlying reasons for unhappiness. It may moderate them somewhat, but it rarely eliminates them. You may find that leaving boarding school early will have its own lasting effect after your departure, a reminder that a situation got the best of you instead of the other way around. @itsjustschool made another really good point that much of what you’re going through now may be endemic to your life stage. It is incredibly common that during these periods, which everyone experiences to one degree or another (whether it’s teen angst in boarding school or someone’s “mid-life crisis”) there is a near-total loss of context and you feel consumed by the problems. However, these are arguments for NOT throwing in the towel.
Without question, and as soon as possible, I would seek professional help as everyone has suggested. It should be the very next thing you do. Find a professional to talk to daily, or every other day, to confide to, to cry with, to express your fears and unhappiness, to consult with about possible medications to help you during this low period. This will be invaluable and help you sort out how much of your feelings are the result of others’ behavior and how much are the result of your inner turmoil and confusion.
Everyone on this board wants you to be happy; we want all of our children who are away at school to be happy. However, we also know that part of the ability to sustain long term stability and happiness in your life is deeply rooted in overcoming these epic challenges in your life. They teach you coping skills and, more importantly, they help drive home the point that you “can” overcome because you “did” overcome. That’s the basis of self-confidence and it will carry you long and far.
I wish you great happiness @katherine978 regardless of your decision.