<p>You can’t choose who you are or your family. As an adult you can choose your friends and where you live. UW-Madison’s very recent choice for Chancellor is an openly gay woman, news articles have emphasized she will do the job for the whole U, not for gay issues. Get counseling, join a support group (remember, most churches are really support groups of like minded people, no matter how other members of society view their beliefs- everyone needs acceptance). It is hard to be different, no matter what that difference is. Do move to a place with your like minded people, you deserve to enjoy your life. When it comes to the whole marriage/family/kids bit realize there are plenty of straight people who choose not to go that route, or want it but can’t have it so your sexual orientation isn’t the only reason to not be part of the traditional family as an adult. There are plenty of families whose adult members don’t associate with each other for many other reasons- you can have a good life without relatives you disagree with. HGTV has several house shows, many of the owners are openly gay couples- this shows how far our society has come in accepting gay couples, conservative America is being exposed to alternative lifestyles as a normal way of life.</p>
<p>PS, you sound lonely, just like many straight people of your age, find a group of like minded friends.</p>