<p>I think that you should study the Bible, and repent!</p>
<p>Just kidding. Seriously, it breaks my heart to read a post like yours - in 2008!!! Trust me on something - there is a whole world out there that you are not aware of. You future will be ANYTHING but sad!</p>
<p>“I realized nothing, with the current scientific technology, can change one’s sexual orientation.“</p>
<p>I hope that someday you will accept, no matter what anyone else says or believes, that God doesn’t make mistakes. I also hope that someday you will be so happy as a gay person that you might just feel sorry sometime for those who are not! I’m a straight woman, but I know a lot of gay people, and they seem to be having pretty fantastic lives. I know – there is lots of complexity and discrimination. However, you can still be who you are and soar through a grand existence.</p>
<p>“My family is keep insisting on me to act masculine, make a girlfriend, play sports, etc. when I’m just being myself (being feminine, not interested in girls at all but only boys, being indifferent of sports,…) “</p>
<p>Someday, while you will always care about your family and try to do what you can for them, you will no longer feel inclined to be someone you are not on their behalf. Your life is a blessing, and you deserve to live yours authentically and to the fullest (just as they have had the opportunity to do with their lives).</p>
<p>“I haven’t come out, and I will never do that, because I’m well aware of the consequences that come with it.”</p>
<p>There are also consequences to NOT coming out (and to many, those are more painful). The choice is yours, of course, but keep your mind open about it. You sound like a very kind, considerate, and thoughtful person, BTW. In the future, I hope you include yourself on the recipient list for all of your good intentions. One more thing…If you live in the right place, and surround yourself with the right people, and hold the right job, the consequences are of coming out (or of being a feminine male) are MUCH less. Perhaps someday you will grow so strong that you will break new ground for your community, and and push the world further in the right direction so that all places, people, and careers will be gay-friendly.</p>
<p>“I’m especially scared of people who think gays are “gross” and “disgusting” and treat them accordingly.”</p>
<p>We ALL should be scared of those people (particularly if they consider themselves spiritual or religious, because then they are hypocrites as well). They are the ones who are gross and disgusting.</p>
<p>“How should you live this world if you’re a gay?”</p>
<p>Find a way to view Rosie O’Donnell’s HBO special on the gay cruise for families. Watch it many times. In short, you should live just like anyone else. </p>
<p>“How unfortunate that I was born like this by some unlucky chance.”</p>
<p>Ouch – you’re killing me. Someday you will feel differently, and you should. You are a blessing, and your life is a miracle. You. Exactly as you are. You need to fight through and draw strength from others who have gone before you. Get out there and start meeting other gay people and find your community in order to get through the transition to adulthood. CHANGE YOUR ENVIRONMENT. Find the places where you can breathe. Live only there until you are ready and inclined to break new ground.</p>