<p>My brother-in-law recounted almost identical feelings and experiences from junior high school through high school. Growing up in the south with family who could not accept him, he chose to attend college in California. Life turned quickly for him because he could be himself and live openly with a community of gay and straight friends. I do not know if college in a different local is an option. You also seem (understandibly so) very depressed-please consider finding a counselor through student health services or one of the protestant churches ( Episcopal) that support gay individuals. </p>
<p>Know that you are a wonderful person-hopefully someone can help your parents open their hearts and minds some more.</p>