<p>So, I have never been a relationship before, but I TOTALLY know what it’s like to lust over people.
Wanting them. Only them, but only their body b/c they’re hot.
That to me is not love. Or true feelings.</p>
<p>When I moved into college this year, I was like “yes! Finally! A roommate I can get along with.” And I noticed he was cute, but it wasn’t a lust kind of feeling I was just like he is really handsome and nice.</p>
<p>Then I started going through a little bit of a crush phase but it was mixed where I wouldn’t lust over him but I would want to talk to him about his life and stuff.</p>
<p>Recently, (we’ve been in college for over a month,) I have begun to think I MIGHT be falling for him. And I don’t know what to do! I say this because: He has made me re-learn my passion for classical piano, he plays it all the time, I love it when he speaks because he has a deep european voice (he’s from the romania/bulgaria area.)</p>
<p>A few of my friends asked me to decribe what I felt LATELY…and I hav enever felt like this before, it’s just a genuine like for him. I want to cook for him and hold his hand and walk on the beach with him–there is none of this “omgah he just touched my arm,” that almost seems childlike to me now. It’s deeper. For me. I don’t know what’s going on in his head. I don’t think he has ANY clue…simply because I’m trying to keep it under wraps b/c i’m like 10 feet away from him at all times!</p>
<p>But, I don’t know. He’snice, funny, warm, smart, and I want to take care of him and be with him. I can’t explain the other feelings I have, like I HAVE to be with him. I don’t know. It’s so hard to.</p>
<p>what do you think??</p>