I find this very hard to believe. If your school refuses to let people to join clubs, why are there clubs then?
No. No. No.
And how would you prove to colleges that you’ve done all this self-studying?
Also, teachers in no way are required or obligated to write a recommendation letter for you. You need to take the initiative work hard, and establish a good relationship with the teacher before you can ask for one. There are other colleges besides the ivies and oxford, etc that are still very good institutions.
If you keep thinking like this, then ** NO ONE ** can help you. Please grow up and take some responsibility for what has happened and then just move on.