Good evening everyone,
I regret going to college. I was not prepared for this at all and I am considering dropping out of Purdue. I am fighting for my life here every day and things are not working out for me. My family pressured me to do well in school and go to college and I was never good at it because I hardly pass any type of exams and get good grades in any class. My former high school counselor told me that my name is on the list to participate in the high school commencement ceremony in June after I graduated early in January. To be honest, I don’t deserve that diploma because after struggling in school my whole life I don’t feel like I’ve accomplished anything. Yes, I got into Purdue but I’m in exploratory studies with a very slim chance of getting into any major I want, which is one of the most overlooked and disrespected programs at the university. While everyone else is studying engineering, nursing, pre-med, etc, at all of these fancy universities across the country. I am struggling in all of my classes and my grades are slipping. Time management is not the problem, I’m doing whatever I can to get good grades on my assignments and tests but it’s not working out. Before college, I had all the hopes and dreams in the world. Now my soul is crushed because college killed my self-esteem and caused severe problems to my mental health. I wish I went to a trade school or found a way to get rich instead of going to college. I feel like the dumbest person in the world and I don’t think things are going to get better anytime soon. I don’t want to work at my dead-end job for the rest of my life, I hate being a student at Purdue, and I’m just a confused 18-year old who doesn’t know what to do with his life after exploring his interests. I don’t want to do it anymore. I am not sure if I will still remain a student at Purdue. I am not here for emotional support or encouragement. I just want to express my attitude towards education.