After hours upon hours of meticulous clicking, terrifying grammar checking, and painstaking reading my wild journey throughout the Common Application has come to end. But among my completion I did not get that sense of relief I was expecting. Sure my senior year, and all that it entails, are no where near an end. Scholarship applications, FAFSA, and acceptances (as well as the inevitable declinations) not to mention grades, work, and, God-willing, my social life all continue to haunt me. But still, I expected to find some bit of solace in the fact that all of my applications are done.
Instead of the refuge I was seeking I found myself even more stressed and I must tell you, I am not a very stressed out person. Senior year just hit me like a sack of… well, a sack of shit. I’m not complaining; everyone is battling something and I’m sure there are thousands of others out there going through the same thing as me, but what really scared me was that my application just felt incomplete.
I fear that my application does not convey who I am both, as a student and a citizen. It almost feels as if it is lacking some of the proudest moments of my high school career. I know it isn’t, but reading through it frightened me. Seeing everything meaningful that I have ever done compressed into one file is terrifying, What I want to know is if there are others out there that feel similarly. I know getting into college isn’t the end all or be all and I know this because of the many times my mother has told me. But let’s all be honest, it’s pretty damn important.