<p>Who else is freaking out?</p>
<p>Whenever I think about Harvard, my heart rate sort of goes up a little bit, and I get this image of how I’m going to feel when I open my inbox, and see the subject line, and move my cursor over it, and click, and the internet sputters and starts to load the page, and all the hotmail graphics pop up, and then the text…</p>
<p>I feel like I’m a part of some horror story, if that makes sense.</p>
<p>I know what you mean… Blood pressure continually elevated. Yeah… Dude, I’ve even had actual anxiety attacks at school already. I don’t know what’s gonna happen when I do find out…(WHICH IS FEELS LIKE NEVER, SINCE THEY’RE NOT TELLING US TODAY!)</p>
<p>The worst part about it is that I can’t concentrate on schoolwork, and I don’t want to do anything else until I hear from Harvard. I’m also having second thoughts about everything, e.g. what I wrote about in my essay and who I asked for recommendations.</p>
<p>Ahh… The paranoia… I could swear when I walked out of that interview I thought I had it nailed… Not any more. I haven’t been able to do my schoolwork either. My grades are shot for this semester. I was hoping I would find out whether I was in or not at Harvard today so I could figure out how much work I will have to put into finals, but…eh… GAWD, this situation…</p>
<p>I’m going to go listen to some Sigur Ros. Maybe that will make me feel better. Hah.</p>