<p>You’ve seduced us all, you saucy minx. 
There are a lot of people who care. Thanks for the wonderful news & invitation to the dance.</p>
<p>I take it you are eating well again, sunrise? That is great news.</p>
<p>thanks for asking. Well, it’s not like I have a crazy big appetite, but good enough that I maintain a really healthy diet…</p>
<p>Glad you have a good appetite and eating well!! I think you had us all worried back when you didn’t feel like eating. Bon appetit!</p>
<p>Wow, I didn’t realize that yesterday was the one year anniversary of your first post!!!</p>
<p>You are really an amazing person!</p>
<p>OMG:::::: Come to think of it, it’s exactly year ago that I had that surgery!!!</p>
<p>In the end, it all worked out. I don’t know what the future holds, but I have no regrets, no second thoughts, and definitely no looking back and wishing I could turn back the clock…</p>
<p>Thanks for being there with me all through these months…</p>
<p>No, thank YOU for sharing your awe-inspiring story of perseverance and incremental victories.</p>
<p>sunrise - I’m glad to hear you are doing well. Thank you for including us in your journey.</p>
<p>I’ve been following this site everyday since early this year only to get more inspired and energized. </p>
<p>I’m very happy because we can also create these great moments! Thank you so much for inviting us to stay close to your great moments! - Min -</p>
<p>Min,</p>
<p>thanks for checking in. I feel very blessed to have gotten to know you (I know who this wonderful person is)</p>
<p>This journey is not for the faint hearted. (those who don’t qualify should have something easier and more mundane like hemorrhoids and erectile dysfunction). </p>
<p>Even when I think/know this new treatment is working, there is a paranoid side of me who is afraid that maybe it will stop working in mid treatment. This is not an idle paranoia: rather a realistic fear. On the internet site I go to to collect data and research information, I see women I corresponded with dying on a regular basis. It’s hard. There is one woman who started this whole journey only two month before me, and she is in hospice care now, and it does not look good. This is very sobering… I have never gotten to know so many people who keep dying on me. </p>
<p>yet, I am happy when I look at my life as a total package. I am calm, mellow, content, and yes actually happy! isn’t it insane? I don’t exercise line item veto. Examined as whole, my life is good. When I look at my life this way, I wouldn’t trade my life for anybody else’s. I don’t know what the future holds for me. Objectively speaking, I may not even be around to see my older son graduate from college.</p>
<p>But, I feel profoundly grateful for so many things in my life. Because even if I become dead average (pun intended ) on the statistical curve, I have no regrets for myself, only for the sadness my family will feel. Last 12 months were eventful. I had a major surgery, and non stop chemo except for 4 months brief. Yet, I feel vital, strong, healthy, full of energy, and happy. I love more deeply and am loved profoundly. In the end, isn’t it what everybody is dying 
to have? And, I have it! so there!</p>
<p>Tomorrow, the four of us (my husband, my two kids, and me) are going on a cruise to Bahamas. I am so embarrassed about this hedonistic vacation. Not my usual MO. I like to take my kids to god forgotten places. We got robbed at a gun point in a Guatemala jungle. We were lost in desert in Mongolia (OK, with a car, but still distressing). My husband almost died (a bit of exaggeration here) of altitude sickness when we were at the Everest base camp (our older son suffered a lot too. The young one and I were fine: we are the sturdy ones in my family). Well, last year, we were planning to go to Egypt, but I got the surgery instead. This year, the original plan was Rome, Florence, andTunisia etc, but the recurrence happened. So we are taking it easy and mellow with the chemotherapy and what not!</p>
<p>My goal is to persuade my husband to join me in a grand tour of the Stans (Yes, I will include Uz beki beki beki stan stan stan. And, I will try to learn it’s president’s name ). It will take a few years to persuade him. This treatment I am on had better work, and let me have a long remission! Wish me luck.</p>
<p>AND, THANKS FOR BEING WITH ME ALL THIS TIME. Being able to express myself in a safe setting has been hugely therapeutic for me. Because of all of you, there is a psychotherapist somewhere who is not making money s/he should be making! This is a bad thing to say because one of my best friends is a classically trained psychoanalyst.</p>
<p>^Enjoy the cruise with your wonderful family!</p>
<p>You are teaching us all the profound value of grace under fire. I say this with a lump in my throat. Thank you for sharing here, it is we who should be grateful.</p>
<p>Thank you. You are a blessings to all of us. I wish you Fair Winds and Followings Seas…in other words, have a wonderful time with your family on your cruise!</p>
<p>Sunrise, enjoy the cruise! Uz beki beki beki stan stan stans can wait. I guarantee that Karimov will still be its president when you go. Have fun with your family.</p>
<p>Enjoy your cruise and thank you for helping us to remember how precious each day is. The happiest of holidays to you and your family!</p>
<p>Bon voyage! Have a wonderful time!</p>
<p>Have a wonderful vacation and relax! You have given us a lot too in your insights, it’s not just one sided.</p>
<p>Hope you had a wonderful cruise with your family and that the coming year brings you peace, stable health and love</p>
<p>Looking forward to hearing about your cruise, Sunrise. Hope you are doing well.</p>
<p>Looking forward to hearing about the cruise…and plans for future vacations.</p>